[My path]_ Filled with so many dreams` so many hopes _

2008-10-13T06:51:00.000-07:00

Cant wait to get back to school.

with school, the mind will work and not freeze like it is now.
with school, i'll be more discipline. which i am not now.

aha. exam. sometimes dreadful n stressful. but actually, its among the best period coz thats when the brain really works, really want to digest and understand the info.

im getting lazier day by day with such a long break here in singapore.
its true. the heart feels empty when its left un-fed and unattented with knowledge for a long time. its so true that 'ilm is nur.

i ever read a fren said, shes afraid to come back to spore . wats to b afraid of? yup, the wordly attachment here. so true. its scary.

hmm.. accordingly, theres only 2 more years left for my degree journey in egypt. personally, im afraid if time flies so fast. i dun want it to end yet. I still want to b a student. i still want to enjoy learning, to enjoy the sweetness of 'ilm. ( though my parents been asking me to take up MA, im still fickle, so lets not talk about it yet )
there's still so much im yet to accomplish in egypt. hmm... whats to be of my year three?

ppl has been asking but...anyhow, i really hope my choice of syu'bah i.e tafsir, is the right choice for me, for the moment. =)

misinterpreation of quranic verses and trials to shake the iman of muslims and charcoaling the teachings of Islam by quoting quranic verses and relating them to incorrect context has been spreading vastly. i hope my entrance to this syu'bah can help me understand more.

aqidah falsafah?heee maybe if theres rezki in terms of time and money and health n situation, maybe there'll be a chance for comparative religion. maybeee~

( tp mcm ye ye je, ntah dpt tak tafsir eh hehe )

a random post that was. hehe. ( its just one of the many ways to tell myself, pls get your brain to work and fill up urself with mind and heart enriching activites. hee.)

2008-08-03T07:28:00.000-07:00

A short post specially dedicated to a friend i missed, nurul huda

There are differences between " wants " and " needs ".
We may not be given what we want, but Allah certainly gave us what we need.
So believe in HIM =)

Percayalah, Pandangan Allah meluas, pandangan manusia terbatas . tats for you n me to remember k? :D

( We know its hard for you, but I definitely feel you wont regret the place Allah chose for you. =) One day, only you will understand the choice Allah made for you. Coz i felt that. =) )

So jom doakan huda kuat semangat spt selalu :D

( haiihh.. rindu pulak zaman baru2 datang mesir... hopefully the new students are doing well over there and not behaving like we were back then hee )

2008-07-24T21:32:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum readers

Among the message delivered during the welcoming tea was : it cant be helped but the syllabus we went thru only cause a side of our brain to work. While the other side is inactive unless we really put in extra effort to think critically or we exercise that part of the brain with extra activities such as developing it with designing, or movie editing etc

So, move your brain.
As a start, i found out that you can simply exercise your other part of the brain which you dont normally use by just using the hand you seldom use.

So, if you're right handed, try using your left hand for maybe half an hour to move your mouse or use it to sms =)

2008-07-17T08:44:00.000-07:00

Seen them before? New students in town hehehehe

Busy. Hectic.
Thats how u can describe my daily life these past few weeks.
Everyday is a routine of waking up in the morning, shower, put on your clothes and veil, and out you go. have your lunch and dinner outside, after more than 12 hour, or at around 11, assalamualaikum, ma im home. dinner again n yakdish! halo my bed! :D

Among the biggest message given during the welcoming tea few days back was to get yourself bz. Indeed, to bury yourself with positive activities is a healthy sign. however, when you get toooooooooooooooo busy that you are having problem juggling other important aspect in your life, that is when the problem arises.

All in all, 3 more days to go.
I really hope and lets pray that this sunday will be way better than the previous sunday. I really hope so.
Anyway, the busy schedule is distracting myself from thinking certain stuff and its kinda like an escape for me teehee

Oho, some of my friends are sick. Some jatuh flat on the head and backbone, some terseliuh, some on flu.... Mari doakan mereka cepat sembuh =)

they bullied me, but its still fun to work with them. ( well, without them, they wont be a drama, so thanks people =) )

2008-06-19T13:45:00.000-07:00

There's this saying which i like :
Kalau ingin kan yang terbaik,jadi yang terbaik dahulu. =)

So, i remembered those words.Just the right words for me to keep myself looking on the brighter side.And so i thought, lets just focus on improving and upgrading yourself nisaa. =)When the time comes, hopefully you're the best enough to do the best for whoever that is the best for you.

hehe looks like in this blog, im motivating too much for myself. hehehe
Well. No harm sharing whats boggling in my heart rite? :D

2008-06-17T14:05:00.000-07:00

Some ppl may express whats in their heart thru their facial expression.

Some however, may try to hide their personal feelings deep inside.

Some people love a person, but they wont reveal it.

Some people are hurt deep inside, but they paste a smile on the outside.

And so I wonder, is trying to be happy when your heart is actually fighting over its emotions on the inside,actually deceiving urself n others?

For what i know, that is part of you trying to live life optimistically. And thats what Islam preaches on. For islam itself is a religion that fights pessimistic. When we are in a pain, when things dont go our way,Islam teaches us to perservere, and perserverence is not just to "tahan", but it is also to look at things on a brigther side, to believe that after a storm, there'll be the sun shining. And together with perserverence,there's tawakkal, putting trust in Allah.

So, personally, to paste a smile when my heart is not, isnt deceiving. But it is you training yourself to be more optimist.

I remembered an ustaz ever said, never give up on smiling. Coz theres a comapanion of Rasulullah who whenver he was put in test, he would smile and when asked why would he do that, he would answer, for he never knows if tomorrow the test is even bigger and he couldnt afford a smile.

So, lets smile our sorrows away =)

Coz we never know if we could lost the ni'mat to smile.

2008-06-13T20:30:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum
Wow. A year has passed, since this blog was left unattended.

Its now, the end of session 2007/2008 for my year 2.

Already 2 years here, and yet, ive learnt a variety of valuable things.

Easily and simply put, during my two years here, for all i realized,most things are put into TEST.
And thats the most valuable thing i need in life, coz thru these test,we learn PERSERVERENCE. We learn OPTIMISTIC. We learn that, whatever and how hard it is,in the end, it is Allah that we will look for. It is in Him that we can only put our sole trust in.

My personal life was put in test, my inner strength was put in test,but most importantly. it is iman that is put in test.

People tend to make differences. But to me, every place,every university, has its own uniqueness. It is all only up to us how do we actually grab all these pearls. we are given choices, do we rather take sweets that wont last long or would we rather dive in and search for pearls. here, i learn even though not many, but i learn somehow the meaning bhind life. Apart from ibadah, it is also about u making ur choices, about u dealing with test.

And during these test, some may fall, some may stand strong. some may stand and fall in the process.However, as many may know, whats more important is, it is okay to fall in the middle, it is okay to cry in the process, but make sure we stand again. in the quran itself, there are so many ayat approaching in a way to "tasliyah" Rasulullah, coz Allah knows, Rasul is also a human being, and so He kept on those ayat to keep Rasulullah going strong =)

All in all, there's still so much to learn, so much to gain, over here, in Egypt, where the prophets of Allah face many hardships in conveying the Da'wah of Islam. And so, in order for us to follow their steps so as to convey da'wah, we too in the process, need to face these hardships. be it personal issues, or matters regarding ourselves, or studies, or anything else. Rite? :D

Sabar nisaa, kerana mendung tidak berpanjangan. hee.

2007-06-23T13:45:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Okay, now is 23:45 , cairo.

just got home from sending my friends off. Yup, they are on their way back to their home... Particularly, Sri and farah. :)

Ohh.. :)
After 10 months of rempuh - ing year one, they are now on their way home.

hehe, its not like i'm not going home, my time will come, soon insya Allah. Its just that, the feeling inside is somehow hard to describe in words. Let me tell you, dont you ever think that in this 10 month, it was a smooth journey for us. I bet you, everyone learnt new things and everyone has their own sweet and bad memories. Its a new environment, its a new experience, its not just about studying in a university, i tell you, its more than that. so, stay tuned for the details, that is if i'm rajin enuf to update hehe

Orites, so, it only has been couple of hours, but I dunno, I miss my friends. I miss sri, ayoyo hehe. She's been the closest one, she's been like a sister, she's been enduring and tolerating with my nonsense. So now, I haf to survive the couple of days without you k friend. hehe. Da tkde org aku nk menyakat hehe. :)

And i miss farah too... y? simply bcoz i just didnt haf that much time to hang out and spend time with her. It seemed to be that way since I start to get busy with ta'lim's activities as well as the 47days exam. hmm... I really hope, this wont prolong till spore. I really hope, we can actually shop together, ramai2 like we used to... :)

The ukhuwwah with my friends, only we can comprehend. :)

okla, tkmu drag. few more days left and i actually have not shop but only one thing I bought. hehe.

But, more important matters are waiting for my arrival in Spore. Part of me is excited and another part is actually berdebar2 and scared. I need to brush up. More challenges ahead, will we b able to overcome them? lets see~ Slmt pulang pelajar2 tahun 1 :) okay, tata. :)

2007-06-19T09:50:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

hee, agak lama ye blog ini menyepi hehe

atas alasan : exam :)

yup yup, da sebulan lebih exam ni... tapi, masih belum sampai finishing line lagi...

hehe esok la hari nye... insya Allah... esokla hari yg dinanti2 plajar usul banat thn 1 : esk laa final paper... stlh SEPULUH paper kte rempuuuhhh~

ye, penat... penat... tk tahu mcm mana lg nk ungkapkan kepenatan tu.

ni pun, krn dah penat, study rate pun da slown down, prangai kan... tp, smoga Allah bantu semuanya esok :)

haa... tk sabar... menghitung hari utk berlepas ke Spore! weeheee :D

fuuhh, sape sangka, da 10 bulan duduk kat mesr! chehh~ hehe... nntila next post, klw rajin, blh share2 ckit prasaan org yg belajar d negeri mesr slama 10 bulan ni ye.

ok da, short post utk mngumumkan, esk last paper! buoi.

2007-05-12T10:42:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Teehee...
Finally I'm moving my fingers to do some short updates

Yeah, so usuluddin year one ladies had safely gone through our orals - Tauhid and Quran.

Uh huh, there surely are many unexpected things happening here and its beyond ur imagination at times. I mean it.

So, the most tragic oral I've ever went through was obviously Tauhid. Hehe.

You see, my friends and I reached our Kuliah as early as 8am and we waited at the doorsteps - although we know that the oral will only start at 9am.

_ revise revise revise

_ tauhiiid~ tats mathilah, my neighbour :D ( kok muke gue tak bermaya... penat yee... )

So, whats the difficulty and unexpected things that we through all about?

Heh.. There was false alarm. There was the wait for the dukturah who will be our invigilator. We wait in the lecture but sadly none of the dukturah had our register no. with them. So, we waited and waited... and waited.. till... the hundreds of Usuluddin year one student started to occupy the lecture hall. But to make it worse, they were like shouting, yes, shouting while some are having their orals. ( ayoyo... i feel like shouting at them back hehe.. pity the dukturahs who had to strain their ears and stay focus). The students were also pushing to find their register numbers. I tell u, it was CHAOTIC. Really chaotic. I myself was amused and confused. Later, there is this uncle who take care of the building. He said that he will hang the register numbers outside the lecture hall, so... what do you expect??? The scenery outside our lecture hall was similar to people performing Hajj. Aiyaiyai. So sri did the "rempuh" thing, but... we got disappointed. Coz we were not in the list! aiyaiyai...

So, we waited for an hour and later our number came out. Fuh, relieved. But the amazing race has not ended yet. We were yet to find the dukturah and luckily we met her, BUT! she said, we are not with her. So, we tried our luck to find another dukturah, but she gave the same reason. Then, we went back to the initial dukturah and finally she agreed to test us. Fuuuhh! Guess what? we only had our turn at around 3 pm and all of us were exhausted.

hehe.. All in all, it was an experienced to remember. =)
And it was a challenge that we managed to go through together . Alhamdulillah :D

Heh.. orites, callo betta.

2007-04-25T13:57:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum =)

Now its 11 pm

Just had my dinner - 2 pieces of chicken with fries. ( da mkn, ngantok plak hehe )

So guess what, my oral will b on e 5th and 7th of May, which means it will start nxt sat. ( woohoo.. mcm btol je... pdhal kan, quran mase dlm proses pnghafalan n tauhid mase byk perlu di-cover ). Heh. Mule dgn, tauhid. Tk tahulah bgaimana nasibnya kami nnti, tapi aku berdoa supaya kami semua dapt beri jawapan yang terbaik :D heh, tauhid ni kan, kwn2 spore ye, buku nye, subhanallah! bkn main "sng" lg ye. ( gue smpai stress sbb baca2 tk fhm n tk dpt tangkap konsep, btol rasa nk nngis, tp must b strong n truskan pjuangan! kte kan warriors, bak prinsip kak rai hehe )

Okay, tuka topic. Nak luahkan rasa di hati ni....
ready?

satu...

due...

tige...

I MISS MY SCHOOL! ( my former madrasah) tsk tsk!

I am disappointed, kecewe, hampe, sedih, terkilan dan yg seerti dgn mereke2 ini, kerana? kerna tk dpt ikut join maulud d skola baru2 ni. haiz... baru je masa tu brangan, maulud lah masanya akn dpt jumpe ramai kwn2. tsk tsk. ( anw stage maulud lawa la, gd job! )

I miss my teachers.... I miss e motivations and care we used to receive from them. Haiz... Masih igt lg saat tkde konfiden nak ambil B.Melayu Lanjutan, tapi cikgu kate, " awk blh la =) " . Adoi...

I miss e environment I used to undergo. Pg2, masuk kelas, msti hati lapang... Disambut oleh kwn2, pastu klw klass sdg berjalan, semua fokus dan snyap. Rindu~ serindu rindunyee~

Okayla, di sini saja. Huu... bantal yg baru dibeli sdg menanti dgn setia di katil. ( kpd yg bantu dr segi menemani membelinye, terima kasih la ye hehe.. lain kali da knyang, jgn order hehe )

Tata~ assalamualaikum

2007-04-18T11:55:00.000-07:00

First and foremost, Assalamualaikum :)

Haluu...

Yeah, I admit that it has been some time since I've last updated this blog. Oh well, same reason as usual, been BUSY. ( cheh.. bz mana je ehh hehe )

However now, I'm finally done with my beloved Unit in Perkemas : Unit Ta'lim... Still, its not time to laze around yet! Exams with 10 maddah is just around the corner. And guess what, the muqarrar are like, What? Allahummas ta'an!!

But my dear readers, i've been test in these few months with different kinds of sickness. One after another. As for now, it has been two days that I'm not feeling well. How am I suppose to study in this condition? Hmm... Yeah, undeniably, I cant escape from having the thought : oh whyy do i always fall sick here? But, i guess, I just need to stay strong mentally by reminding myself that, this is a TEST from Allah and how hard it is, I must face it with any kind of patience there is. And as I learnt from my maddah tafsir, someone who is sick and yet is patient is another great BIR ( kebaikkan ) after someone who is patient over his/her loss of money or anything that has to do with maal. And another point, I just came across is that the more difficulties Allah gives to us also means the increase of HIS love towards us.

So... Do pray for me... Heh, undoubtedly, kind of stress out to be sick when I have lots of reading and memorizing to do.

As for e upcoming examinations, sincerely, I have no confidence but I will try to study and cover the best I can, insya Allah, aaaameen. :D

Insya Allah
Selepas Susah Ada Kesenangan

Adios amigos. Kepala da berat lagi hee.

2007-03-30T12:27:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

=)

300 - spartan...
ptg td, bukak my external drive n found tat kak shefa d/l that story in my hardisk. Ape lagi, kerana cemburu hr tu bdk2 llki dpt tgk ramai2, i took my sweet time to watch it. ia menceritakan tentang Battle of Thermopylae... bile kerajaan parsi umpama superpower pd ketika itu dan mereka nak menjadikan spartans hamba2. Jd, berlaku pertempuran... yg... hebat. 300 askar nk lawan kerajaan parsi yg besar. ( itu mngikut history ye... ) .

wow... dan paling best yg boleh extract dr movie itu ialah... smangat berjuang yg kental dan membara... never retreat, never surrender. Heez.. smangat mcm tulaa rasanya perlu ada dlm jiwa stp pelajar kan.... lagi2 bile musim exam da nk dekat... waduuuuh!

Heez.. kemudian, ni tergerak hati nk tgk vid klip inteam : pemergianmu... lagu yg mndendangkan tentang pemergian Rasul kita, Muhammad, salluu 'alaih. Terigt pula tntg perjuangan rasulullah... tak pernah putus asa, tak pernah retreat atau surrender. Dan... di saat sdg tenat, masih boleh lg igt kan ummahnye. Solluu 'alan nabii :)

Jadi, tk kisahlah kan exam nk dekat... my last contribution bg ta'lim, utk maulud nabi... Utk rasulullah... kan azim, kan fakhrur? hee.

okay2... hafal quran! baca buku kuliah!! catch up!!! :D OHU! OHU! OHU!

ALL THE BEST MY FRIENDS!

last but not least, jgn lupe selawat kpd rasulullah! :D

2007-03-16T06:34:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

Heez. Salam kurg sihat dr saya :p

Waaa~ Lama udah enggak update. Ngapa sih? Ya, pastinya ramai udah maklum... Laz week gue bz~ Lalu, gue sakiit... Iya... Sakit MATA. Enggak bisa bukak~ hehe. ( stop e crap khai :p )

Yesh, last wed, my LEFT eye was in pain. Went to see e doc, a nurse applied some cream onto it and yea, she closed my left eye... u noe, i bcame a pirate and had to go home with that. erks. E next day, alhamdulillah, cured, :D

Fri - preparations for mlm budaya. till it was arnd 12 plus am and my eyes was half opened. My vision : blurred. Reached home, cant help it but rubbed my eyes and guess what? tomorrow in e morning, i cant open my RIGHT eye and i was crying. yah~ apply my medicine, but i still cant open my eyes!!! got panicked! felt miserable! and it was~ very very very painful... like few needles cocok-king your eyeball from bhind. aarrgghh! cut short : doc came, and he said, condition : serious. after arnd 3 or 4 days, i finally can open my eyes and my bandage.

And now, guess what? I'm down with a fever and painful coughing. And... more worse, on asthma. Allahumasta 'an.

A tribute to...

My personal nurse : SRI NURAYU

Thanks a lot!! Thanks for taking care and nursing this wounded-eye lady for days. Though u too were not feelin well, u still entertain me. heez. Thank you. Jazaakillah khairal jazaa'!! Alhamdulillah... :)

And not forgetting... Unit Ta'lim

Heez. Guys and ladies. For visiting, for ur concern and for the buah-tangan. Heez. Almost all, xcept one came to visit. Subhanallah.. syukran!! :D never xpectd.

To KAK FIZAH watib...

Thanks to you too! for taking care and helping this asthmatic lady last nite. much appreciated. jazaakillah ya ukhti! :D :D

To others... thanks for ur concern and for ur dua's.. Jazaakumullah ~ :D

opps.. yeee.. tk lupe... to the one who took the difficulty to buy and deliver food for this sick girl. heez. plus fetching my hp to "hospital" and for the dua' + solat and for the company. Syukran jaziilan :D May Allah bless you, aaaameen.

Pls... pray for me, for my frens too, who are sick. Heez. In this condition, fever plus asthma, feel sooo weak and unable to do much thing.

_Peace utk sakit mata ye. hee.

2007-03-02T01:36:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

ALHAMDULILLAH...

first Ta'lim's event : completed.

Fuuuh...

It was a collaboration prog and i was busy handling other Ta'lim's and ECA's coming prog, so me and some others didnt attend most of the meetings which also means, we were not involved with the brainstorming part for the prog. However, though last nite's discussion was kind of heavy, I am glad to say it went out well and smoothly. Alhamdulillah... :D

Hee..

Though i wasnt involved in e discussions, I was to deco the library for this event with my Ta'lim's members. ehee. Macam reaal jee nk deco backdrop~ hehe.. okay2, so, here is what you get...

: LajNah Ta'Lim :

Kerohanian & Ta'lim. Kill ya shefa! hehehe

Yesterday nite.

went home and talked for awhile. well, the mood : tired , got me and a fren to our nerves and it ended up me saying silly things till tat fren got mad. heez. and i was emotionally tired that... i finally burst. a bit though. hehe. sorry la.. jgn marah. :D and sri, thanks yea, but it wasnt anything much, just a short burst heez.

Aite.

Now, I am plain tired. My body and my mind. Still, guess what? I got a meeting for today. Yups, we gotta start some discussion for maulud - like where shall we held the event and stuff.. before its too late.

Next up? Malam budaya... weehee... its an excited cum nervous cum scared... heez. okay, so now i dun have a baju kurung with me here in cairo. ok, there is one, but it feels uncomfortable wearing it. howw? heez.

Okay, would like to cook maggie and out I shall go... For a meeting with fakhrur and later with Ta'lim :D tata!!

2007-02-27T03:38:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Heh, what a boring blog i have hehe. no updates for so long.

why is that?
simply coz i've been err... busy?
with... meeting... meeting... meeting... holiday trip to Sinai... meeting.. meeting... posting.. collecting... meeting.. YUP! meeetiiiings!!
never before did i imagined that i'll be attending tonnes of meetings. Even this few days, i've been like, go to kuliah, back to home, have a short rest and straight to markaz for meeting. And back at home arnd 10pm.

Whatever it is, how tired i am and how i complain from time to time, this is an amanah given... gotta continue with this work and do the best I can. Insya Allah, it is beneficial for myself, it is for others and... of course, for Allah. heh. penat. tp perlu cekalkan hati dan teruskan. rite rite?

Okay, enough of my bz life.
Let me share with u... one of the best trip ever... KEMBARA SINAI 07! weeheee! what can i say? in the beginning, there was not any excited mood to join this trip, but i did join... y? i just did hehhe.

But beware~ it end up to be a wonderful, beneficial, filled with experience, fun and memorable trip. :D seriously heez.

After so long, i was like a monkey. Climbing here and there at Qal'ah Salahudin. Heh. Sri, Baitina, Sis Suaidah and I envied the guy for having the chance to climb here and there, and so... hehe... we insisted on doing so... hehehe. Till, ustaz noor had to be our mentor while climbing this steep err, what eh? mountain kck? hehehe...

K k.. lets view some of the pic!!!

while waiting for afad as our musyrif to markaz, at 11.45pm.

_Sri Nurayu, me roomate. ready to go.

_Khairunnisaa, myself and penguin. :p ready to go too.

The next day, we reached sinai. And first was to visit Qal'ah Salahuddin. Best best!!! :D Sempat main buai.. Sempat panjat2... Dpt tgk lauuut yg jernih... Bau laut... Naik b0t...

_The 3 of us while waiting for the bot. (fara n mif in our heart insya Allah hee). Bhind is the qal'ah. wehee... :D

_With shefa.. In the bot! nyahaa!

_jom amek gamba ramai2! heee.. bhind is egypt's flag.

3rd day... we went to st.catherine. had the opportunity to visit the church and view the burning bush - the one Nabi Musa 'alaihis salam saw dan kemudian Allah mnyuruhnya utk tanggalkan kasutnya.

_after entering the church, climbed only a bit... coz its too sunny...

_after walking and climbing under the sun to 'uyun Musa. woaa... penaaat... balek je da nk semput. heez. we took arnd 1 hr and a half to reached 'uyun musa. no stop.

_ape tu? campfire... sukeee!! :D bessh! (ehem, ade org tu kepo eh.. nk ikut ddk dpn campfire jgk hehehe... :p )

_yo! yo!in one of my precious sweater. :D syukran... tgk2, da mule nk sunburnes. errrgghh!!

JENG JENG JENG!!
PRESENTING.............
RESTRAIN FROM LAUGHING OK!!!
EHEM....

_the chubby blue penguin. like a humpty dumpty, i'm in 8 layers of clothes. (blueks ah, ckp org penguin lg... ktawekan org lg grrr hehe) hee.. its 12 am, before briefing and climbing mt.sinai. hee... dug dup dug dup.

finally, the climax. :D climbing mt.sinai at 1.30 am!!! wohoo... heez... the wind was... blowing that at times i felt like i'm gonna fall with this kind of wind hehe...
i was cool at first... though i start to sneeze and having running nose... later on, hee, guess what? i was having trouble controlling my breathing... was nearly to having asthma... but later on, ustaz noor noticed that and he asked me to stop and try to control my breathing. thank you ustaz nooni! :D later on, hee, was fighting with my breathing and my running nose till i cant speak and answer ustaz noor. heez.
thanks huh ustaz nooni for ur concern n taking care of my grp :D

and alhamdulillah,later someone came to accompany and i gained more enthusiasm to continue my way up up up the mountain... fooyoo... cabaran... thank u yeee :D

finally, reached the peak at nearly 6am!! :D hee!! it was tremendously cold up there that both my leg's n hand's fingers were numb and i needed some warn hug from my frens and managed to received from kak oda... trime kasih! :D hee.. watched sunrise! ( ke sunset eh.. :p heheh ) hee... baru brp hr tu brangan, da dpt tgk eh heheh..

_finally, my team. :D

hee!! penat die jgn ckp ok.... penat gile gile.. mcm org da brumur, satu bdn sakit2... hehe..tp!! still... kembara sinai 07 gerek!!! i'll keep those memories :D

da la... pnt la... tata~

2007-02-02T01:44:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum :)

Okay, firstly, i would like to state my kind of disappoinment. Tsk tsk. The plan to have some break and visit alexandria today had to be canceled. Tsk tsk. Hehe. K, ckit2 je sdih k khai :D

And the reason to it was coz I'll be having the next meeting for unit ta'lim this coming monday. hee. sacrifice ckit la, tkpeee k khai. And farah will b having hers today. So, we dont have enough time, and sadly had to cancel. hee.. baru angan2 nak ddk dpn laut, nk ambil angin laut, nak take some break.

Wednesday was the second meeting, but also the first formal meeting. Hee. Though we kind of drag here and there, but I gained useful knowledge from the meeting heez. And I felt more comfortable with my team members now, hee, with our head of unit who will spice up the meeting with his slamba jokes, and the vice will liften the discussion with his enthusiasm plus ideas and suggestions. :) Alhamdulillah. Hee, but I just realized that my unit gonna have lots of work to do and ideas to share with. Oh well, I'm glad though coz at least i'm gonna spend my time on beneficial activities. :D

Ops, yesterday was the second round to maarad. But also, the first to buy books :D Still, need to force myself to go again, coz yesterday was unable to angkut other books. Hee. Thanks kpd mereka yg menemani dan tolong ye :) Kalau tak, bdk kck ni tak larat nk angkat dan tak smpai maarad tu, mana tak, asl nak pergi, ade hal yg mndtg hee.

Okay2, that tuesday, 30th jan, was afad's 20th birthday. No more a teen, my fren. Hee.

Presenting you, afad ( k la, fadhlullah ) the birthday boy...

And, the choc cake... Sanah helwah fadhlullah.

Hee. and this cheerful classmate of mine was soooo happy :D

Next up... Rudy's ! nyahaaa . :p

2007-01-28T03:07:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Not into any mood to write on something serious.

But, shall I just write in something short to express what is in this heart?

Hmm.. Honesty.

How do we ever know how honest someone is towards us? There is this malay proverb : " rambut sama hitam, hati lain lain".
Allah create humans with heart. This heart, is a major part of human. For, nearly every single doing comes back to niyyah which the place as all know, is the heart - which only HE knows the truth of it. While us human, we may tend to judge someone before we even know his or her heart. Or, even if we have been friends for so long, we may tend to misjudge his or her intentions.

Hmm. Now, honesty has a close relation to... TRUST. one major factor in any relation - family, friends, zaujiyyah etc. So, for years and till now, I've been wondering, how do i trust someone? i dun mean, a hundred percent trust, but, just at least put in some trust to someone. How is that possible when ppl have intentions we may not know...

For... Only Allah has the right to have our full trust. But, for humans?? How do we actually know if he or she is sincere? What is his or her intention for befriending us, for acting this way towards us? because of misjudgements, because there is lack of sincerity, because there is no trust, people start to quarrel and ukhuwwah tend to break apart.

Hmm. questions questions.

Aite, thats all.

Meeting this wednesday, which means i cant visit alexandria until after wed. Oh yah, it has been a long time since we contact our teachers huh guys... and it has been some time too since i last contact mak aid,cik kamsiah. aiyaiyai.. mngkin lps da mule talaqqi kot? hehe.

oho.. y must someone look for you when you've already made a decision not to look behind? y... contact me wif that intention? ujian minallah? izan, ufawwidu amri ilaihi ! If i've already made e decision, then i've got to believe in that decision plus tawakkal... Allah berfirman : "fa iza 'azimta fil amri, fatawakkal 'alallah " . n no matter wat tat some1 say to get me look bhind, i've got to hold on !

k! gotta make a move! a fren is sick and wlupun malas nk klua umah, tp... mcm mana hang blh tkde ubat ni? ku da jd mcm pharmacist hehe.

before i end, thats the xcited khairunnisaa. maklumla, pertama kali mnjejakkan kaki ke mcm subway train di cairo. hehe. slalunye, tgk di movie, ni dpt rasakan :D k la, kental la khai~ :p

2007-01-23T10:03:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

this is just a short post to relax my mind :D

i was giving myself a short break and I decided to watch... some old-school times vidz hee!! And I was laughing, as though I've never watched it before hehe. "berpanjangaaaan~~" "ghurabaaa'~~" "ahmad ya habibi ya habiiibi! " hehee. and while some of u girls are dancing and singing like no one's business, the others were like the loyal spectators; laughing our hearts out. :D

The message is simple : i miss that gile2 time, e fun, e cheerful times we shared together. Ahakz. At times, how i wish aleh is here wif us, hehe since she will cheer the atmosphere wif her jokes :p and shyyd... e one wif the camera. ayoyo hehe. (lps tu, bile dgr bunyi org ketuk pintu, seme kelam kabut hehee mengong2. )

Okaylah enough. :D

1 MORE PAPER LEFT! NAHU SOROF IS UP FOR TOMORROW! it is both a yeehaa and a oh-oh. yeeehaa coz i'm soo lookin fwd to hooray2 n oh-oh coz i still have few more chapters to cover and its already 8pm now! ayoyo hehe. so, adios amigos! shall update tomorrow, 24th jan when the examination is finally over for me ahaaa! :D

2007-01-18T00:56:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum ! :D

Hee ! Feeling great, coz...
I slept for 12 hours ! wohoo! hehe..

Padahal, examnya belum lagi habis. Selesai 4, 2 sedang menanti. Erk. hehe. Seterusnya adalah mantiq. yups, mantiQ. Allahummas ta'an wa yassir 'alaina kulla 'asiiir :)

Kertas semalam, usah ditanya kerana aku pasrah kepadaNya.

Okay2, saat ni, yang bermain di benak dan hati ialah... Rancangan selepas exam ! weehee~ hehehe. pagel punya org. 2 lagi kertas mencabar yang hang lum blaja menanti, da terfikir pasal slps exam. :p

K k.. secara tidak tersusun :

* nak movie marathon ! ( tp, vcd n dvd yg dikirim bpk, belum lg smpai .. ler... )

* nak tidur, nak tidur yg cukup, peaceful sleep ( ehee.. besnyeee ! )

* nak pergi alex ! nak ddk dpn laut ! faraaaaaaaaaah! baca ni?? ku nk pergi alex !! bwk laaa!! ehee.. :D lps tu kau blh jmpe "bakal kakak" kau heheh :p

* nak kene wat research ler. after this konfem ade meeting unit ta'lim.. klw tknk blur, klw nk contribute, then muz do some research. plus gotta put on thinking hat.

* nak jalan2. tp nak kemana ? balek2, city starz, balek2 tahrir. hehe. eh, tp da lama ah tk naik bot :p hehe.

* yups. nk kene buat some "soul searching". Heez. Perlu mengenal pasti dan mencari jawapan yang samar2 dalam diri sndiri. ehee. mmg mepek ler si khai ni kadg2 hehe. diri sndiri pun tak faham.

Okay ! :D :p
Erm, nak mntk tolong, tgh baca ni kan, doakanlah sekali diri ni bijak dan sabar menghadapi ujian di sini ye. Mana tahu, doa anda dikabulkan :D

K da sudah. Nisaa ! Get back to ur book! Bismillah... Nak baca dan fahamkan mantiq ni, spt sri kate, boleh berpeluh2 bila baca hehehe. mcm nk pinjam akal ustz nooni. skejap je, utk fhmkan. bile ilmu tu da masuk ke hati, bg balek. hehe.

2007-01-12T05:37:00.000-08:00

W.A.I.T. W.A.I.T.

today marks the 5 MONTH we are here at cairo, egpyt! tehee~

at this time, 4pm cairo time, we're leaving the airport and heading towards our home to leave our baggages and head for markaz. eheehe.
Was excited cum nervous hehe. K enuf. Wait for e 6th month. :p

few more months to goooo...! n am gonna come home! :D
* nak makan yg kepingin2
* nak jalan2 sorg2
* nak beach
* nak belajar masak dr mak
* nak jumpe org2 wehee.

Wait for more, coz till the day is approaching, there will b a long list. wehee.

know what, I'm so lack in E.I. - Emotional Intelligence.

all you gotta keep is strong, move along move along~
even when your hope is gone, move along move along~
just to make it thru~

when everything is wrong, we move along =)
Senyumm ~ 1, 2, 3.. HEE!

p/s : why wait for me? i think, better not.

2007-01-11T01:55:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum

Beware - e content below may contain quite emotional or mayb a bit personal stuff. :p

Done wif the second paper! :D
Initially, didnt finished up my revision in a proper manner. Hee.. So many dugaan while revising.
So, I'm done, alhamdulillah wa tawakkaltu 'Alallah :D

Alhamdulillah, thank you.
You - e one who took e difficulties to accompany me revising till its already 3a.m. It made much difference. Coz, mayb w/o e company that Allah gave me, I would have gave up, continue crying coz I felt I'm not gonna make it thru for fiqh and would have slept. hee. Terima kasih daun keladi.

Thanks to my dear friends too. Sri, farah, miftah baitina n others. :)
When I felt like slacking and was down, they wont leave me w/o words.

Friends play a great part here in you life :D

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Okaays. Move along move along ~ :D
I dun noe how tat fren ("aljan") is doing, but whatever it is, I'm tryin my best not to pester tat fren's life, at least, for e moment. :) Untill, we are doing fine. And, if someone is readin this, i'm not sure if I had done anything wrong, n I dun wanna get disturbed by my past so I'm not gonna take e risk to msg u personally, but all i can say is that, I apologize if I done any mistake to u n tat fren. :)

Evryone play a part. Together, we strive for e best we can :)

"am i wrong if I'm trying to leave e past and giving myself ( n others mayb ) e chance to b happy?"

2007-01-08T09:27:00.000-08:00

Salaaman my dear readers!

Yups! I'm done with the first paper at University of Al-Azhar! My first paper for my first year here!

It was tarikh sunnah.

Initially in the morning, we felt like we're going to berjuang or to some competition. Hehe. As we reached our university, everywhere were students engrossed with their books. So, we gotta rempuh to look for the location of our examination.

It stated, mabna qodim, lajnah 38, akhir toriq, yamin. HUH? hehe. We were like, what does that mean? So... here goes the amazing race. We search for the place and we tawaf once at level 2. And finally we found it! Guess where? hee.. at the corridor before u enter a classroom. But I think thats better coz then I'm far from the cold wind and the possibility of getting copied is minimized, or should I say, Alhamdulillah, I'm not worried bout it as I'm surrounded by my friends :)

4 questions, 3 hours. My waist was in pain, my hand's muscle got tired, my handwriting worsen from page to page. hehe. Oh well, tawakkaltu 'alallah! I've done what I could.

Next up is fiqh ( hanafi though ) - wednesday, 9.30 am.

Before that, here's some pictures of miQ 05 that I just discovered heez.

Those who represented mwti. Heez.

Finals~ Surprisingly, we got blindfolded. Tgh tunduk n berfikir, ape ni yg aku makan ni.. hhehe..

The result. Oh well, second place for us. Its ok. It was an improvement for madrasah and tkde rezeki. :)

Gotta have some short rest for now before continuing with fiqh coz my head is in pain, feels like it is compressing. The aftermath of sleeping disorder. blueks. Buoi buoi.

2007-01-06T10:49:00.000-08:00

assalamualaikum...

today, mood belajar mendak. sloww skalii proses revision hr ni. hmm.. i wonder y.

Woke up early. Cooked, but melalui jalan expressway. Washed kain2 buruk. Shower. Then, washed my clothes. Hang to dry. Checked my mails, blog hop for a while. Revised tarikh, a bit, and ngantok. Took a short nap, but was between awake n asleep. Woke up, revised but.. very sloww. Tell u, e mood to study today mendak.

So... I went thru some of the old picturess haa~ seronok~
ade perbezaan, dr segi cara tudung... ade perbezaan kat muka hehe.. klakaa la pulak.

Jom tgk same2 jom :)

Ho-ho.. bdk2 nk berjinak main pool? klakaanyee... jolok asal blh jee... noti eh, pi main pool !

hee.. sweetla gamba :D rindunyee "melepak" dgn bradeks~

panjat2 eh.. da besar pun masih mcm ni.. ape nk jd? hee.. ni lah, klw da tk skola kan...

susah kalau masih tak puas naik kerete 20 sen ni kan hehehe

zaman2 pergi simei mrt utk ke sekola~ balek naik mrt kat paya lebar~ waduuuh~ kangen sama sekola dan baju sekolah gue!

Ha! lain laa mukee n tudung~ hehe..

mukee tk bermayaa~ isshh.. nape dulu mcm ni? kentallnyeee!! hehe

zaman orientasi~ hmm.. best pulak...

k ah, merajuk ah~ buoi! heheh

2007-01-05T12:45:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum~ !

Alohaaaa~

Ok, before anything else, here's the link to the vid of korban @ markaz spore, cairo. Tengok la!

Kambing disembelih live sebelum dimasukkan ke syurga : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cfdqW_3LkEg

Keadaan yg mngharukan, mnyedihkan ketika daging diagihkan kepada mereka yg memerlukan : http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5L-Y4UK7Nn8

Hee.. for u guys aite. I dun wanna say much bout the event coz most of my frens' blog had given out the details. All i gotta say, it was a great event and so was the feeling. :D
Lookin fwd for another aidiladha over at mesr!!!
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Orites!
Its 11 pm at cairo and... I can already feel the strained veins at neck. Exam~ it's nearing, it's coming our way, it's inevitable and is driving fast towards us. This mondaaaaay will b e 1st paper!! Aaarrrh! k... relax khai~ chill nisaa... haaa... huuu... haaa...

nervous. worried. usaha. tawakkal.

Baca, hafal, revise.. tp masih lupe2, masih belum confident. Seriously, I cant imagine what questions will pop out for the xm and honestly, the confident level is very low... The feeling is indeed not the same as preparing and expecting e days to mid or final year examination at my former school. hmm... I dunno how everything will turn out. But all i know, I hope Allah will let me stay under HIS rahmah. For, Allah knows the best, and may he grant us all the best :D

yah yah~ as the days to examination is getting close, the challenge plus dugaan are coming as well~ heeez. Oh well, igt igt! Nak kan kesenangan, perlu tempuhi kesusahan terlebih dahulu! Nak kan yg terbaik, perlu hadapi ranjau sebelum itu!

Oh yup, one sidenote. Allah has chosen sri, me n a fren to carry this one big amanah. Subhanallah... Only HE knows how I feel inside to know that I have this amanah on my back. Apart from that, now my future is like : it is that way. hmm. baruu plan mcm2, tp... hmm. Every yr kene balek ke... hmm. Tkpela, Allah knows better the hikmah behind all these.. " la yukallifullahu nafsan illa wus 'ahaa "

okays! either gonna sleep or continue a bit! buooi!

2006-12-25T11:39:00.000-08:00

I'M NOT MAKING IT UP... RIDICULOUS, YET TRUE

Assalamualaikum, aloha people.

You gotta read this.

Time : Approximately at 12:30pm
Venue : Cairo ( Raba 'ah - Sabie' )

i) Sri and I was hailing for a taxi infront of our apartment. Our destination was to nile restaurant followed by Markaz. While we were waiting for a vacant taxi, there was this one big, fat, (tk bedek, gemoook) car which parked before us. I was commenting about how fat the car looks like. And later, we hopp into a taxi - after passing by that car and I heard the guy in the car saying something which I cant make it out coz I was in a hurry.
So i was in a happy mood coz hee gonna order some food to fill my starving stomach and to recharge the energy.

ii) We reached sabie'. I hopp out of the taxi and as i turned, was kind of surprised... to see that fat car behind us. And as I told sri, she said, " Eh, dia tk ikut kitorg kan? " and of course we kept a positive thinking in our mind and laughed at that thought. As we stepped into the restaurant and found a seat near the entrance, sri said, "eh awk, tu kan kerete td? ". And yes!!! It was the exact fat gemok lebar car! That car stopped infront of the restaurant, made a u-turn and parked infront of the restaurant. He was looking at us. So, we ordered our meals and later, we did a little experiment. We walked out of the restaurant and headed for a nearby shop, and guess what?? From the mirror of the shop, we could see that car again! That man is abviously following us~ So, we couldnt help but to feel kanchong and made our way to nile restaurant again. yups yups. that car came to park infront of the entrance. I couldnt believe it sey. Sri and I was already scared and we rang Mr.president for Perkemas. He told us to wait as he will be there to accompany us to markaz.

So, for like minutes, Sri and I was waiting for the food we ordered and that man was obviously looking straight at us. Creepy. And later, we went to the counter to pay for our food, and guess what? we saw that man walking in front of the restaurant trying to search for us. As we were talking to the pattani guy, I saw that man headed for his car and later, we saw him drive away. Minutes later, ustaz Noor came but that guy went off already.

Yikes yikes yikes. One ridiculous, mysterious incident, yet true.
I myself am unsure what was his motive. But it surely is one experince for me n sri and we're gonna take some precaution steps, such as gonna buy that pepper spray - as advised. hehe. and will always try to make sure that handphone berfungsi.

Seriously, many incidents and cases happened here. Flashers. Horny men. There's even an incident in which someone got chased by a "freak flasher". Yes! CHASED. pagel kot hehe. An incident in which a taxi waited for a friend of ours infront of markaz. Errks. True stories!! sooo! be carefuuul! dont b too daring aite! read lots of prayers and try not to go out alone unnecessarily. hee! an advise for me n for youuuu~ and to the guys, hee, we girls appreciate it a lot when you spent some of your time and energy to musyrif us, thank you! :)

:...:...:...:

oh, I am glad that my previous entry was not just any waste of time of mine :) never did i thought that it will give any impact to you readers. thanks. Allah will help us out if we help ourselves. Insya Allah. :) especially the fact that we are doing this for HIS din. Time to leave our playful and fooling around habits bit by bit, for a while. Just for a month. And we can have a breeeeaaaaaaak~ Yeeehaa~ Looking forward for the trip to other parts of egypt! But, for now~ gotta stay focus!

2006-12-24T06:58:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum~

17:00, Cairo.

What happened today was, I went to see a sis at Cairo Airport, as she's.... yah, she has completed her degree and is coming home - Singapore. Yups, coming home~ Home~~

I am sad of course that she's not gonna sleepover at our house from time to time as she used to. But sincerely though, I could feel the urge to fly off to Spore growing stronger as I look at her and her baggages. That urge, that desire, cause the silence in me while I could just daydream till the day comes. Sad. Down. Hopes.

Till then,
Ya Allah... Kuatkanlah hati ini dan rakan-rakan seperjuanganku untuk meneruskan perjuangan ini. Tiupkanlah semangat luar biasa utk kami memperjuangkan agamaMu dengan menuntut ilmu terlebih dahulu.

Its frustrating to some of us who are sensing the "slackness" in us, in which I guess, we never slack this much before. I believe most of us are trying though to stay focus for the upcoming examinations and to work hard for it. Still, its not that easy - as said by words.

I myself am experiencing something similar. In fact, I get tensed from time to time watching others giving their best shots while I keep on losing my precious focus and actually am getting slower than before. I guess, only Allah can comprehend fully what I'm trying to say here.

But dear friends, lets work this out. We can do it! We know we can! We dont wanna regret later, so... we HAVE to TRY our BEST to put in as much effort as we can to achieve our goal(s). Work towards it. No matter how hard it is or it may seems, never shall we underestimate our potential, cause we always have more than what we can give. We may tend to fall in this process, but never shall we give up!!! We have our hadaf for coming here. We are the chosen ones. Its not easy, but we've gotta take this challenge! "inna ma'al 'usri yusraa" ! mahlan mahlan k guys! Biarlah kalau org tu kelihatan sdg progressing well, cube agar jgn jdkan perkara tu jatuhkan kitorg. We have our own style and step by step we're gonna make it thru! Cube k seme, cube k khai! hee!

We gotta b tough and courageous - we gotta face and overcome the difficulties!

All the best in your preparation process my dear friends! Those wordy are specially for you, and for me!

I got u and u got me. We've gotta stick together and reach for the stars!

Kinda worried for my friends, especially the year one students, be it guys or ladies. I pray, Allah will grant us ALL success, Aaaamiin!

_Azhariyyuns' meeting @ expo. :) preparing for departure.

_Bye kak dayah! See you in Spore! hee... 6 more mths! :D

SUCCESS ARE FOR THOSE WHO DARE TO ACT!
NO PAIN, NO GAIN!

2006-12-17T14:34:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum~

Aloha~

Its 12.30 am here, n yah, where else but in cairo hee.

I'm still wide awake coz I took a long nap, a 2 hour-nap in e evening hee! So now, I just finished my "anyhow-hafal" for tarikh sunnah, and I only managed to cover nearly half of the book. There's still more to go and I need to revise my memorization for umpteen times maybe.

Today was the last muhadarah or lecture for the mid-term. So, I have like a 3 week break before its 8 of Jan! Oho! Or should i say, its exactly 3 weeks away to my first paper at Azhar! Yikes! Allahummas ta 'an! Allahummaj 'alna minan naajihinal mumtaazin!

miss miss miss~ I miss spore!!!
I heard theres a new place - vivio city! I wanna visit vivio!! I miss my hoooome! My roooooom! My rooooom! hehe.. miss my family! ai yai yai! Guess what? I'm craving for sambal tumis udang~ what?? y dont I cook it myself? no no... The udang or gambari they call it, is soooooo expensive! can go up to 30 L.E!
Okay, like for now example, I dunno where else to turn to for my source of entertainment or to rest my mind after reading or memorizing... so, here I am, infront of the comp screen..... i want to watch t.v laaa! hehe..

>> Ppl may only judge you by your physical behavior, but deep inside, only you and Allah know whats going on. :)
Ppl may look happy and contented, but you never know what's in their heart that they might be hiding from others.

Okaaay... miss singapore!! byeeee!

2006-12-13T09:16:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum ppl!

sorry! sorry! sorry! hee
I apologize that i leave my blog un-update.. heez
the reason is...

EXAM IS NEARING!!! and i'm bz doing LAST MIN preparation. yups, last minute!

I have 6 subjects (fiqh, nahu sorof, tarikh sunnah, ulum quran, mantiq, nuzum islamiyyah) for the mid-term and yet i still have a long way to go in catching up. Oh yah, the exams will be on early january!

So... Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaaaaaaaaaase! pleeease! pleeeeaaaase remember your friends over here in your prayers! In mesr, we always have to expect the unexpected, and i'm so nervous bout that. ai yai yai!

Okay2, enough bout that.

Today after kulliyyah, bertungkus lumus at the kithen smbil lari2 to toilet cuci baju. hee... yah, i cooked two dishes : nasi goreng wif perencah ayam and nasi goreng sambal belacan and i did ayam goreng kicap. hee! lapa, jap lg nk mkn lg!

oh yes! like fakhrur said, its winter and soo... we get hungry easily! asek2 nk makan~

oh yesh! i broke my spec, AGAIN! so, i managed to buy a new one here for 400 L.E which is around 140 sg dollars. Oklaa tu eh. hee...

ok tk?? hee

oh ye, sri is ketua unit komputer siswi, farah ialah naibnya. Baitina, dia under unit sukan, naib tk silap. Mif, dia nya jawatan di mansoorah. Me? Ketua eca siswi. Azim, ketua eca siswa, naibnya is fakhrur. Afad is naib ketua komputer siswa. Tajuddin ahli ekoniaga. hee. Doakan kitorg dpt pikul tggungjwb ni dgn baik k??

till then! gtg! byeee~

2006-11-06T07:16:00.000-08:00

5th nov

Cold cold cold!

Cold weather is here!!

initially in the morning, i could feel the cold breeze coming from my balcony. So, i prepared myself with a sweater...

In the evening, while i was in the class, for the first time, I felt the wind. the cold wind. yikes. so, when kulliyyah finally finished at 3pm, I predict that the weather outside must be windy and cold... and yah!! sejuknyeee....

later after maghrib, went to saraq mall with sri to shop for sweater. we had our dinner at KFC and afad came to musyrif us home. and guess what? it got colder than before! seriously!! i was "vibrating", my teeth gritting, i was shivering! yikes! sejukkknyeeeee~~

sejuk! sejuk! musim sejuk da dtg!!

MARHABAN YA MUSIM SEJUK!

6th nov

after we took our blood-test result, we went for check up. haa... klaka ok..

first stop :

whats that huh? eye or vision test! yup! hehehe.. kecoh kan? not done verbally but with action of our hands following the err symbols.
ha, klaka skali, kite buat, die tk tgk pun, lps tu die kate da. ade org tu, tk ttp satu mate, bkk due2 mate pun, die ok. kekek amat ok. yg pnting, keje jalan.

next was check up for chest. and last, teeth. how? pergi kat meje doctor, then, "aaaaa!". ok, done.
yah, done. for 50 L.E. kekek laa.. tp, haizz... ni lah masalah org islam kan. buat keje sembarangan. da seronok sgt keje relek2, bile kene buat keje, marah2.

2006-11-05T11:27:00.000-08:00

2006-11-04T10:26:00.000-08:00

Just got home.. :)

Saw the cake?

Yeah, went to accompany sri to mustasyfah, die kena hasasiyah - gatal2, biten by insects mcm pijat. And later, we went to Sale Sucre! Yeehaw~ hehe.. its a cake shop, besss~ I liiike!

We ordered two cakes and we took pictures. Ok, now the weather here is COLD. Most of us already start to wear sweaters, the thin ones. The degree here for now is around 24degrees to 17 degrees. Heez. Even at home, my hand and leg feel cold. But, best, but cold.

Tomorrow kulliyyah. Alhamdulillah, semangat pergi kulliyyah tu sdh ade, cume... Semangat nk revise and baca bk tu... aaaarrrggh. stress sndiri tau. Betul2 kene pakse diri ni. I'm left with like 6 weeks or so till its my first examination over here. Hmm.
Ok, one of the many things that i dislike bout the arabs here is that, dorg ni kasar~ haiz... sikit2 nk tolak, tk tahulah, but i get annoyed easily by that. tk pnting eh? hehe.

okays.
be happy! act happy! find ways to be happy! though deep inside somethings are bothering you!

till then, pray for us over here!!

2006-10-29T11:25:00.000-08:00

Assalamualaikum!

Aloha!

Dah lamanyee tk update and the main reason is due to my pack schedule for raya's preparation.

Ha, if u guys dun noe, i let u noe ok. The preparation for raya over here, is not the same as we were in Singapore. I mean, we have to make all the preparations all by ourselves, without our parents, meanwhile back at spore, we were only the helping hand for our parents. Kat sini... kena masak utk mlm n raya pertama, cuci dapur. vacuum mop lap hall, pasang langsir, kemas bilik - all by yourself! barulah terasa, kesiannya my mum kena kemas sndiri tahun ni.

wait wait. hee. i managed to make at least one kuih over here - cornflakes milo! and dabes punn! yeehaa! hehe..

how was my raya here?

Alhamdulillah, best jugak :)
pagi raya tu penat sgt2, sbb mlmnyee tdo lmbt. later on, i put on my black-pink dress and went to Markaz Perkemas for the Majlis Lebaran. Alahai... ade kwn kitorg tuu, die tk pernah bernasyid kat skolah, cume pernah masuk acapella n boriah je, tp mase majlis tu, die nyanyi!! hee.. tahniah atas keberiannyaa yee!

first day, balqis which is also farah's house, was the first to start the open house. Yah, her mother was the chef, yummy! :)

_farah's open house.

Second day, plan nak berjalan dibatalkan kerana ada org dtg rumah.

Third day, Bustan was our first stop. mule2, kite dgr dorg masak nasi briyani, then smpai, oh! macaroni soup! sedaaaap~~ hee! next was ziarah rumah2 lain sampailah ke rumah greenview, our last stop. makan roti with kuah spaghetti and ayam. dan kmudian... kelam kabut balek, sebab esk open house!!

_BUSTAN (hee.. knagan buat bk kngangan laa kat rumah ni... )

_kononnyee... sopan hehe

fourth day - open house!!!
my house - abu neil n abu darda'.
The nite b4, kena potong2. Paginye bgn, my job was to handle the living room. yikes! last min preparation. pkl 10 baru dpt nk gosok baju seme tibe2..... dooorbeelll!! haa!! kelam kabuutss! seme blum siap!! hehe.. so, mkin lama, mkin ramai org dtg... later, arnd 1plus, bdk llki sramai 5 org were the first banin to arrive.
ok, perasaan paisey n serba tk tahu mcm mana nak layan da mule~
me n sri lg kan first yr students, bknnye kenal sgt bdk2 tuu.. kitorg due ddk je n dgrkan kakak2 bbual dgn mrk.
sekali.. jeng jeng jeng... sdg kitorg bergambar, tibalah rombongan bdk llki seramai 20 lbh org dgn nyanyian di dpn pintu!! aaaaaarrhhh!! nk smbunyi blh??
dan yg plg tk dpt dilupekan, raya first yr kat sini, kene interview di hadapan mereka yg kite tk kenal......... aduhai... rasa mcm nk smbunyi, tp da tkle lari.
overall, capek banget... tp... it was fun n memorable. :)

_rombongan llki di abu neil

the day after, we went to more open house.. and today i went to my senior from mwti house - abg nafis n asri... tomorrow, open house lg. hee.. kat sini, open house yg kami tggu2. hehe.

ok2, ehem *clearing my throat*.
Tak pernah2 bdk ni pkai tarha, tp die gatal pergi beli. da beli mahal2, malu nk pakai masa first day. khai! jgn mmbazir 50L.E ok! so.. pakai laa waktu open house.
haa.. ni die bdk yg mentel pkai tarha.

Stakat ini saja, esk mngkin ke kulliyyah. hmm.. someone pls help mee...?? masalah... smangat nk ke kulliyyah tu die pergi hilgkan diri ntah ke mana.. can find it back for me? tlg carikkan, suruh die pulang ke pangkuan khairunnisaa ok?

*CERIAA DI AIDILFIRTRI!* SALAM LEBARAN DARI CAIRO BUAT YG DI SPURA! =)

First day of schoool!!

2006-10-02T08:42:00.000-07:00

Uhuk huk huk~~ cough. cough. cough.

Akum.. alooo readers

Yup, am still sick but I am more worried of the chances, wal 'iyaa zubillah, to having chest infection, ya Allah... Jauhkanlah. Pleeease.. pray that I'll recover SOON.

Yesterday, 1 OCT 06.

Our first day of kulliyyah. :) :) :)

We reached at around 9.15 and the mudarraj or the hall was half occupied. We sat about 9 benches away from front.

The surroundings???

Kecooooooooooooooooooh amaaaaat!
Arab girls raised their voice to talk to one another, they climb over benches and tables to go from one place to another, they shout to call one another, it was KECOH in bold.

Not forgetting, we were surrounded by arabs. Friendly, i repeat, friendly n ata akkadu bitaukid lafzi, friendly friendly friendly arabs. hehe. I guess they were xcited to have overseas friends.
So.. Sri and I and some others had already made some arab friends such as Baraa ah, sofa', aayet, fatmah etc.

Oh.. was there any kulliyyah? naah.. xcept that there's this dukturah, Dukturah Zainab who will be lecturing us on Fiqh, she came in to inform us on certain things. And later at around 12plus pm, we were off to home.

Day 2 ...

We reached kulliyyah a bit late again, at around 9.15am, and few of the front rows were already occupied. But.. BUT, fortunately and surprisingly, a friend of us, aayet, reserved a place at the second row for both sri and me. How sweet that is!! :)

First up was mantiq. Mantiq Qadim. Dukturah Majidah Kamil. :) Her way of betulkan tudung reminded us of our former ustazah - U.sidah. :)
We were briefed on the introduction of Mantiq. It was delivered in 'ammiyyah. And I was trying to capture the dukturah's words and I managed to understand like... 40% of it? Hee. Mcm btool jee.

Later, we have some free time while waiting for the next lesson. And.... And guess what?? Meanwhile the wait, sri was surrounded by a group of arb girls as I was surrounded by another group of arab girls. Hehe. It was nice and we were glad to be welcomed but it was kinda tiring. hehe. y?? cozz.... they ask soooooo many questionS! like, awk pakai celak eh? awak makan ape selalu? nanti sebelum awak balik spore, jemput kitorg datang rumah ok? hehe. serious... many questions. ut honestyly speaking, they are friendly and nice people. They treat you well and they just love meeting new ones, especially students from other countries. Sri kene - anti 'asal (awk madu - manis) and me myself kene - anti gamilah, lathifah (lawa,lembut). heee.

Ok2, enough. It getting wordy. Before I left for home, I attended a nahu saraf lesson. It was in 'ammiyyah. hmm.

Thats all. Pleeease... pray that we'll be ok over here. :)

Tatapan anda ... :)

_Dukturah Mantiqiyyah

_Lets begin seeking 'ilm!

2006-09-30T09:54:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum readers..

Today,
Sri and I went to see the doctor at the mustashfa raba'ah, and we were accompanied by a senior.
Why?
Coz both of us are sick.
Sri is having an on-off fever, cough and running nose since last two days.
As for me...
I've been sick for more than a week. Coughs which cause me to exert lots of energy, from brain to stomach, and... yah, asthma. tsk tsk.

So readers, in this month of Ramdhan, do pray for ur frens who are not feeling well.

Tomorrow insya Allah kulliyyah starts, hmm.. I wonder klw esk larat nak focus kat kulliyyah dlm keadaan begini. Thats about the update for today.

Nisaa signing out.

2006-09-24T11:10:00.000-07:00

Khairunnisaa reporting from Cairo, Mesir.

Cheh~

First and most importantly,
!أهلا أهلا يا رمضان
Allah yubarik fiikum wa yarzuqukum ramadoonul kariim! =)
I pray and hope that ramadhan this year will be ahsan wa akthar barakah lakum wa li, Allahummas tajib!
May All of us be better muslim and muslimah. May Allah send His hidayah unto us wa yarhamuna. Allah taqabbal 'alaina ramadhan! qul aaaaamiiiin! =)

What happened today was early in the morning, I got myself washed up and trying my best to instill the spirit of going to kulliyyah. Alhamdulillah, it was there. The spirit I mean. Though not that much, inside was the small voice chanting : "oh please... Hopefully kulliyyah starts today, hopefully there is a class, atleast one class".

So... this is what you see. 4 ladies went to kulliyyah, leaving home at 8.30 am.

_Mathilah ( sporean but studied at brunei), Adabiyyah (aljunidian), Sri.

_shadow of the small lady.

_excited khai, hopeful nisaa. (what a wide smile.. eeek. tk snonoh, i noe)

_presenting... mabna jadid! where my first year of university shall start. :D

At level 3, is where our mudarraj is located. But sadly though.... SADLY, its mughlaq~! Yah, no class for first yr students yet, not untill insya Allah, insya Allah, 1st oct.

_can u see the label?? usuluddin, sanah ula?

And so... we head for home. Yup, home. We met some arab friends. they're friendly :)

ok2, why not if I show you some ideas of how sri's n obviously my house and room look like. Ready?? Okay, dont like, errr.... mcm ni? qanaah ok, qanaah!! These pictures stlh di-tapis. Few only aite.

In count of...

1

2

3

_the one and only toilet.

_our bookshelf, located next to the door and near my table.

_the make-up table munzuz zaman.

_that's my laptop = my temporary place for internet surfing, chatting with you etc.

_lauk buat berbuka di hari pertama. Sedang dimasak...

_Sri's study corner. Her table.

_Khai's study corner. My table.

_Happy friends. Belong to Sri and Khairunnisaa, bluuek hehe.

Okays, y not now u leave some comments? hee... till then! Rajin2lah bertarawih n bertadarrus. Salaam 'alaikum!

after one month

2006-09-21T12:04:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum ppl :)

aloha! after sooooo long, after ppl has been nagging to me, "khai mepek ah, tk update2... da basi".. now I'm back with updates.

oh well, i've been soooooooo bz since the news that we have to fly early.

so, on the 12th aug (a mth b4 my bday), with my dad over at Madinah, it was the day when I am accompanied by my families to the airport. And as i entered the airport, frens clap n "kak khai... cuteenyee.." . y? coz I bought along my teddy and bean bag hehe.

_mama, adek, abg izal(2nd bro).

_bradeks

okay, goodbyee ppl. remember us in your daily prayers. Smoga niat kami tidak akan lari, insya Allah. May we be those who will fight for Islam n save the ummah insya Allah.

_sedihnyee muke fakhrur

_that's the exhausted khai, taken by farah.

_ahlan wasahlan Qaheerah! the so called "trendy" groups are here!

Alhamdulillah, we reached Cairo at arnd 3 plus and were greeted by our seniors, whom most we dont really know n we were like... err, who are they? err... ksiannye panjat2 van, angkatkan beg kitorg. Alamak, tk kenal siapa ni. Seram pun ade. hehe.

Two days later, Aljuniedians arrived and on the 16th aug was the opening ceremony of the Perkemas orientation and... yah, more new faces. err, lost part 1 in cairo.

Lots of things happened during the two weeks orientation, sweet and bitter. :)

_our AJKs, our brothers n sisters. :) thanks a million for your effort. Jazaakumullah khairal jazaa'!

_freaky day. the day when I was to act as wydipah, azmi the wydipi. many challenges we went thru together, but I learned valuble lessons from the meetings. :) ppl learn from mistakes
.

*....19th BIRTHDAY @ CAIRO.....*

_my ice-cream cake at 00:00, 12sept. _sri's n my choc cake at 19:40,12sept.

It's one of the most memorable bday I ever had. Two surprises for a bday. Thanks a looooot my dear frens for your thoughts n effort. Kene sabo pasal soal hati, adoi~~ but still, it was soo sweet that my friends did all this for us. thanks a lot. Getting older, means getting iser ok khai!

_-_ More, more.. more!! _-_

Apart from all that, we went to rehlah. To the pyramids, which I was soo excited as i get down from the bus. To masaaajids, to qal'ah, a very interesting place. and.. to maqam Imam Shafi'i.

And yeah. Surprisingly, i was one of them who was chosen to be the lucky 4. those involved in buku kenangan. :)

Okay okay. enough.

_thats a brother of us. Abg shahib. We, the buku kenangan crew, just got to know him. He's a brother who surprisingly i got close to in just a few days. :) but he's already at singapore. Just when I am happy to have someone who is like a brother to me here at Egypt. oh well.. :) cute but crazy brother. Give good advices and can cheer me up. hehe. nembamm!

Thats all for the moment. khai out!

2006-07-21T20:59:00.000-07:00

Assalamualaikum

The group from MWTI going to Al-Azhar Cairo, Mesr, will depart on :

28 Aug 2006, Monday
Dept at 0525
Terminal 1
Transit at Bahrain
0800 hrs non-stop
Insya Allah arr at 0825

Dept from Bahrain to Cairo at 1100
arr cairo 1410

Insya Allah, if Allah permits so, if there's no delay and such. Friends, do pray for us (no delay or anything) coz I think we are all happy with the date.

---

Yup, lately I'm kinda busy going here and there, just to settle our visa, birth extract, survey some things to bring along, shop some of the things we need to bring and to travel agency for our ticket and sponsorship. =)

And Alhamdulillah, our one-way flight tix which cist arnd 700+ will be fully sponsored by Shahidah Travel, Alhamdulillah. =) =)

Today, we were supposed to meet Suhaila and Farhana at Bugis mrt station, coz we planned to attend a talk at MAA, however, farah sri and me were exhausted from our outing last nite (which we went to travel agency and shopped a bit) that we decided to rest.

---

Things aint going smoothly for my frens and for me as well. Oh well, I thought of not getting myself too close with ppl or I shall hurt you intentionally or UNintentionally. I pray that Allah will prevent me from hurting anyone. And I am sorry to anyone who i've hurt or cause you to be mad or in no mood or to add your bad mood.

---

To Miss-Konfidenn, I am truly sorry that I still havent done my job, I'm just kind of busy these few days. Insya Allah when I find the time, I will remove them k? Sorry tau =)

Okays, gotta get ready cos there is Ustaz Fathi class at 2. =)

Assalamualaikum.

2006-06-24T05:21:00.000-07:00

Salaaman =)

( I )

As for today, 9-1 : arabic workshop with ustaz abdul ghani

2.30-4.30 : arabic class with ustaz fathi

My mind's tired, coz it has been some time since I experience a long period

of class.

Okay. So, I was a bit distracted during the first class as.. some ppl, (ehem),

will somekind whisper something and laugh just after I finished reading

or answering to the ustaz. kurg asam benar korg. mengumpat je eh. tp korg tu llki.

kepo je. hehe. and so I found out they were talking bout my pronounciation.

mngada ke? hehe. I was just trying to read correctly n accordingly. pastu ikut2 org bace

pastu igt kite tk dgr pastu pnt sndiri. pastu yg ddk sblh ktawe. pe je.

then, when i was answering the ustaz, suddenly ppl were soo eager to hear.

apehal eh? nervous skejap. then, when i laugh a bit (coz i think its weird

that suddenly ppl bcame soo attentive when its my turn to answer) , they laugh as well.

ape ku buat, korg ktawa. badot ke aku ni? bluuek.

(II)

Okay. Time is running out. Nxt wk is the start of July. There'll b maulud.

The week after, my friends and I will b attending a 4days 3night camp.

The week after, there'll be gathering.

And so. It means. It simply means that.. The day to a fly off, to a new lifestyle

and environment, is getting, very very near.

And guess what? Most of us havent shop. And perkemas lum smpai.

Bile nk buat visa, bile nk book air ticket. AND most importantly,

satu juz of quran pun lum smpai and i havent done any serious revision.

yeay.

Till here for the moment.

For my fellow friends going to azhar, we've gotta push ourselves =)

I and you, we've gotta be extra discipline (hentam je spell) and more hardworking

to revise and memorize the quran.

And others, please pray for us your friends.

and i miss my friends. =)

2006-06-04T06:38:00.000-07:00

What's with the shoe??

It's not a guy. Nope.

The ans :

5p.m today saw a grl on her own at the fitness area, located near Tampines JC.

At 6, she jogged her way home, feeling breathless and great at the same time.

***

Yesterday, was ... EXAUSTING, CRAZY, and.. SUPERB.

Sri and I got Afad as our nice and fun company to World's Book Fair

at Suntec City mall.

Ouhh.. But our destination from citylink to there and at the mall itself

was unexpectedly too crowded.

Still, as we stepped into the mall..

Khai : Korg, pls ah.. Cari kedai makan dulu....

hehe.. So, we decided on.. SECRET RECIPE!

a treat for ourselves again.

Ops! I didnt tell u..

Its my and sri's first time to SUNTEC mall

Our leg was forced to search for secret recipe, which was located

at the other far end from the entrance.. and mind u

the mall was.. HUGE!! wee~~

Lotsa shops.. N so sri and I decided that we shall shop for Azhar

at Suntec Mall nyeahahaha!!

Ok, so the search for convensyen hall wasnt that easy for us.

Da msk garden, klua garden, turun naik escalator, belok2..

Finally! World's book fair!

At the Arabic's booth..

Finally, at 10, we rushed home, in which, Sri and I got panicked

hailing for taxis, coz the taxis just wont stop. hehe.

Nak pergi suntec lg!

***

Farah, sri, udin and I accompanied Huda for shopping.

for the first time, demi kenangan ye huda.. huda took neoprint, with us. :)

while waiting. . .

Again, i dont want to get myself easily disappointed with ppl's bhaviour. Smiles!

2006-06-01T00:35:00.000-07:00

Salaaman. Aloha.

Its been weeks since the last entry.

Ok, briefly..

The terengganu holiday trip turned out to be.. FABULOUS! EXHILARATING!

ENJOYABLE! REFRESHING! All in all.. FANTASTIC. =D

RESORT! located before a BEACH! COUSINS!

adorable talkative cute little 1 yrold BABYCOUSIN! SUNRISE!

LAKE! WATERFALL! (and believe it or not, we slide into the slippery

and strong-current waterfall with our "jalan-clothes" on.

coz waterfall wasnt in our plan.) PICTURES! yummy yummy yummy TOMYAM!

K. Enough of terengganu.
Finally,after two months, met my boys and girls. :)
Took over playgroup class, and the third session was...

Ya Allah. Ma Sya Allah. Retak dadaku.
Even the vice-principal cant control them.

Some on the table, some below the table, two of them walk with my shoe on.

Still, sooo happy to meet them. They still recognize me and were excited,

smpai tchr yg ni dpt group hug hehe.

(hazwan with my shoe on) and.. (teater nisaa and her boyfriend, ariq.)

Okays. Quran satu juz pun belum sampai, pdhal lg 3 bulan.

Pelajaran lain jgn ckp. Pagel pagel.

Before that, krn tggu sri lambat..

Ni lah yg terjadi sblm kelas talqqi.. hehe

(farah berangan bwh pokok) & (advertisement gigi)

(Fara xcited,khai slenge) & (Farah giant,khai dwarf)

Tomorrow friday, gonna accompany huda shopping hee!

2006-05-10T08:43:00.000-07:00

Mood : Not that good, but trying to cheer it up.

I miss my boys and girls. So much. Sooo Much. Ariq, sufi, amirul, adly, diyana.. All of them. I miss them. Haiz, everytime I'm asked to relief at al-amin, I have to reject coz I had to attend classes and had to tutor as it's exam week. Belum diizinkan utk jumpe lg. But, I love them still.

Going off to Terengganu with my family and extended families this vesak day, that is this friday. Hmm, not that excited though. Or, not at all. Though my mum keep on saying, "tkpe, nnti bwk bantal semua, than ddk kat blakang skali, blh baring sorg2", though my dad keep on with " nnti papa bwk ke shopping mall kat sana ok?". hmm. Thanks huh farah pinjamkan mp3. I'll buy one in future insya Allah.

Someone gonna b home 2 more years. hmm. Ok. I haf no say.

Finally, I dun wanna feel disappointed with anyone, not my frens not anyone, coz I haf to belief that, kelakuan manusia yg berbeza n mncabar diriku hanyalah ujian dan dugaan Allah.

Salaam.

1 week update . . .

2006-05-08T22:02:00.000-07:00

Aloha..!
So, these are the 1 week updates - 30MaY > 7 ApriL.

1st MaY, MonDay :

*Bradekz Gathering*

7 turned up while the other 3 couldnt make it. And so.. the so-called jirans and pakciks came too like Herman, Amin n Salam.

Took pictures, watched bintang hati and APM together, laughed a lot, joked a lot, and yeah, wafi and along lari2 dari kucing. hehe.
The atmospehere was kind of like a family gathering on weekends.

3rd MaY, WednesDay :

So, out of 5, only two ( sri and I) showed up for balaghah class at ustaz's house. (And tomorrow too, only me n sri will b able to attend talaqqi and balaghah).

So, after the class, we went to Tamp Mall, shopped for Danial's present and then...
We decided to treat ourselve. hee! BALI THAI FOR DINNER!!! just the 2 of us. hehe.

Ok,place ur orders.

Khai, as usual.. Tom Yam! And sri ordered spicy curry. Jemput!
Tomyam die sedap k..

7 MaY, SaturDay :

*Meeting among Azharians-to-be (or.. azhariyyuns-to-be)

Discussed on the plan to survey for the air tickets.

So.. There they are.
Me, Sri, Fakhrur, Taj yg sdg smbunyi, azim, herman ( ikut je ), Rudy yg nmpk tgn je, Afad, Farah yg ambil gambar. Baitina absent. Miftah's going too. :)

Kalau org tak orite, mmg begini. hehe.

Okays, klw da namenye camera-freaks, this is what happened, partly what happened. hee.

Okays, done wif the meeting. So... Baruu pkl 2 lbh. Balek? Kitorg balek? hehe.. So.. to esplanade was the abrupt plan.

After the girls had their meal at Lau Pasat, they anyhow followed their instinct i making their way to Masjid Maulana. Did our prayers and suddenly at 5pm, qamat seakan azan berkumandang. Farah da.. Huh??! hehe.

Met the guys luar masjid and so.. We walked to.. Esplanade. Tapi the guys, jln laju. Pe je tau. hehe.

Hee...! I like this picture. Hee.. Kurg asam farah eh. hehe.

Lepas tu, bknnye kitorg nak balek, sambung jalan kat City Link and Raffles City eh namenye? hehe.

Okay.. so.. rewind sikit, on the 31st MaY, SunDay :

*Maulidur Rasul @ Madr Alj*

here are some videos that I can share with, the Junieds vid were taken by my shaky hands while UNIC vids taken by my one good friend, ehem, asrory gembam. Credits to him. Thanks ye? Tu sbblah awk close fren kite. hehe. Enjoy the low-quality vidz thou! =D

2006-04-28T04:38:00.000-07:00

Firstly...

Wishing you happiness and succes throughout your life and in the hereafter... So sorry coz I cant celebrate it with you... Hoping that you understand that I'm going thru some hardships here. :)

Oh wait, hardships? :)
Hmm.. Yeah, dear friends, please pray for me and my family. So, I'm having some big problems and I hope my friends shall understand me when I cant go out with you guys at times for now. I have to think more than twice before I step out of my house. I only have The Almighty as my help and protection. Inside me, I aint happy nor do i find regular peace. But I'm trying to feel ease with all the problems I'm facing. Thanks to my friends who though not much but had been caring towards me. And not forgetting that someone who somehow when I was in grief due to these problems, did not fail to make me smile and laugh. Thanks a lot. :)

Oh yesh, that monday, the class with ustaz ismail. hee. As usual, I like his class. As for that day, he gave us lots of advice. Part of it which I was most attracted to when he talked bout "girls". His piece of advice touched on our pride, we should "jual mahal" :). He said, kalau artist nye duit hantaran boleh tinggi2, abeh tu perempuan yg solehah supposedly lbh tggi, sbb die tahu bace quran, tahu ilmu agama n so on. ade ke die suggest 30ribu? hehe. tp ustaz memain je. In addition, he told us to be careful in choosing husband. Something like that. And more importantly, he said, perempuan mcm bunge rose, cantik, tp bile sdh diramas, sdh tdk boleh dicantikkan atau dielokkan lg. :) Nice.

Finally, I admit and acknowledge that Allah knows the best, and HE had everything written in our faith. Thus, for now, I will just pray for the best, also continue and cherish with whatever that I have now. *winks* I cherish the moments we have now. With my family, my friends and.. and you ofcourse.

... You wont find and know the best for you till you've encouter the terrible ones...

2006-04-18T02:03:00.000-07:00

Another new song again =)
I've been changing from an indon song, to malay, eng and now to an arabic nasyid, entitled "ya man yara".

Anw, I've been attracted to anasyid al-'arabiyyah - religious one though, not love ones. hehe. So, the one on my blog now is an example. Personally, I think its nice and relaxing, and may actually put ur heart and mind at peace. :) ( i said "may"... coz mayb it depends on individual)
So.. in case any of u are attracted to the such songs, like the one on air now, you may have more of these songs at www.islamway.com. Thanks to tat someone who told me. Oh yeah, khassatan to those who will be flying to the middle east for studies, and 'ammatan utk yg lain2, you may want to try hearing muhadarah from lecturers or sheikh over there, including muhadarah from alazhar asysyareef's lecturer and stuff. Yeah, tat is in case you wanna noe how it feels like hearing them talking in arabic.. or, how it will be like sitting at kulliyyah and hearing muhadarah. It comes in fushhah, but.. I still am soo blurr while listening. hehe. So.. do try k? :) Its on the same url of course =D

Ops yeah.. Ku slh seorg yg da tersangkut dgn gunbound. Yikes. Tats not good simultaneously I've been down with one of the dangerous yet actually not contagious illness.. or is it a virus in me?? its called - "LAZINESS". ok? hehe. Lazy to come for class, lazy to do my memorization, lazy to revise. All i want to do is to have more sleep, eat, watch tv, surfing the net and listening to arabic nasyids plus... gunbound. Penyakit betol.

Ok done. yeah, the days to our "new world" is coming nearer. Tapi... Mane die surat or something yg confirmkan kitorg dpt atau tdk....???

2006-04-14T03:21:00.000-07:00

Sebak di dada tidak dpt dibendung. Dek kata-kata yang memilukan. Maaf kerana bersikap kurang sopan. pendengaran ini tidak dapat menerima. lalu itu sahaja jalan yang dapat ku lakukan

Wahai teman-teman..
beritahulah padaku yang jahil
apakah utk melakukan ssuatu yg baik
utk berubah kpd kebaikan
perlu anda beristikharah??
lalu jawapannya...
anda tidak akan berubah sama sekali

Maafkan aku kerana begini lemah. Kerana sering tewas dgn emosi. Emosi adalah sifat wanita
yg semula jd dlm diriku. Aku telah berusaha. dan sedang berusaha. agar tidak mudah kalah dengan emosi. agar tidak mudah menitiskan air jernih. namun apakan daya.. semalam ku tewas... tapi ku ingin terus mencuba. namun dirimu...
mengapa mudah berputus asa???

14 kembali lagi. Di waktu begini setahun yg lalu... Biar aku emosi.. Biar aku marah... Dirimu teguh di situ, menenangkan aku, membelai hatiku.
Minggu-minggu yg sudah... Ku sudah mula terasa bahagia.. Kerana ku mula melihat perubahan dalam dirimu... Ku sembunyikan kebahagiaan itu. Namun... engkau tiba2 berubah semula.

Walau apapun... maafkan diri ini. kerna sering menyusahkan dirimu. kerana terlalu emosi.

Mereka dapat berjumpa. Kami berjauhan. Semoga Allah membantu kami.

2006-04-08T08:03:00.000-07:00

Reached home around 8plus.

Bought one new jubah with as, afad and azim accompanying me and sri. Well, as usual, they are the jokers. Afad teased me wif the baby clothes at first lady. bluueks! Azim being our fashion consultant. hehe. they also act as our helper to hold the clothes of our choices for us. hehe. well... kitorg tkdelah ajak2 dorg ikut, but then, they want to follow, so... tkkn nk kate tk blh.
Nearly 7, I realized i havent perform my asar, but by that tym only left me, sri and azim. Sri had to rush home. So.. azim offered to accompany me to masjid. nak tk nak, wlupun trase segan n berat, pergi jelah 2 org. Waduh.. As far as i remember, this is the first time berjalan 1 org dgn kwn llki. Hehe, azim cam bodyguard ah... So, solat maghrib and naik bus 28. I tried to b as sopan as i could while brjln dgn azim, mnghrpkan org tk fikir ape2. Thanks to azim for the company.

oh yea, farah sent me lagu mawi.
i like coz its meaningful to me.. munasabatun lii.. :D
"kini ku mencari cinta yg hakiki~
cinta yg tiada berbelah bagi~
daku mencari cinta yg hakiki~
cinta yg bisa mmbuka mata hati~
pdMu aku berserah~
pdMu ku akur kalah~
leraikan jiwa yg resah~
pdMu aku meminta~
berikan aku cinta~"

so rite, so true... itulah kata hatiku.

and ppl wif enthusiasm to takhassus fi kulliyah lugha is about to change their mind... due to some realization and reasons yg munasabah ( muthobiqun lil waaqi 'iyyah fi singhafurah)

oh yea, i'm still jealous of some aljunidians or ex-aljunidians k. hmmm. true tolibul 'ilm i see in them. may they achieve their aims, God-willing.

2006-04-06T04:01:00.000-07:00

Elo elo! Hee..

Okays.
Semlm Fawah, Swi n Khai nye first talaqqi and balaghah lesson.
Both best. :D
Talqqi. Dpt byk info and dgr byk cite. hee. Cutelah the ustazah. Suare lantang betul, ku yg melihat, ku yg trase penat n kesian. 2jam stgh ustazah tu asek bbual. "Retak dade" cik tu dgn ank2 nye hee.. Byk pulak buat lawak n cite kelaka2, smpai fawa ketawe tkle maintain so ku asek pukul die je. hehe. ok,next wk get ready nk muncung kan mulut, ade ishmam kat surah yusuf nxt wk. hee.
Balghah. Rindu sey. Then kitorg asek perbahaskan bout certain things yg kitorg tak fhm and later kitorg2 jgk yg find the solution. Cute. hee. Tp sygnye, cume 4 org je hadir, 3 of us plus huda. haiz.. Ppl goin to continue in arabic stream, pls do make an effort to come, dun miss this chance and regret in the future.

Later, me, fawa n k.ais jln2 pat tamp. Ade kwn nk bg brownies, ler.. nk jmpe pun ssh, byk2 msg, last2 tk jd jmpe jgk. hehe. but then, later nnti die nk pass cake. waduh. hehe.

Oh,tkle miss out. Semlm de kekecohan gan my fren tu. Smpai asek dpt pggilan dr jauh. hehe. yg aku pun jahat,malas2 nk layan kwn aku tu. hehe. tp da ok.. pastu kul 1 lbh pg gah tdo terbgn lg, org jauh kol lg. hehe. slalunye klw gah tdo abe org kacau, ku ngamuk la kan.. (fara n mif n shyd tahu eh.. hehe), tp semlm ku maintain je. bluueks. ape hal ku cite? tkdelah, best kan dpt pggilan dr overseas.. hehe.

And yea, semlm tchr aisah msg.. she told me : adli darswisy misses you. He asked "Tchr nisaa mane?" aduhai... haizz..... I miss you kids too!! :( So swit of adli to still tanye bout me... pdhal die baru 3 thn... haizz.. tats him, melawa wif his glass..

Okays. Esk de badminton appoinment wif my frens. Yeay!! hee!

2006-04-04T01:41:00.000-07:00

Hip hip! Horaaayy...! hee..! *claps*
Finally! New look for my blog. wee~ :D
Amacam? Ok tak? hee..

Ok, update for the past friday, 31st mar.

Amirul is the challenging one in my first session class... active child.

hehehe... huda is a grl k, tp.. ku pkaikan die songkok.. :p

miftah and her bunch of favourites.. :)

so we (or actually abg farah yg nk blanje) treat our colleagues 241.
So yeah, there's the wak tanjongs tchr over at almin, Farah, K.hetty, me, Miftah, K.azura n K.badya, absent was K.marsyitah.

that's the small little "compressed" boy who i love so much n geram banget.. eee!! mmuah! hehe..

and finally... presenting.. my darlings... wit-wit! hehe

Now, there's no more sunshines to brighten my days, to make me smile though I'm deeply in blue. No matter how naughty they are, loving them makes me happy.

Ok, so i have more free time now.
Monday : Nahu class at whampoa
Tuesday: Tutoring at night
Wednesday: Talaqqi at serangoon and balaghah class with ustz mustafa
Thursay: Free
Friday: Tutoring at night
Sat: Arabic class wif ustz fathi
Sun: Free.

[x. Just wanna be happy, be it on my own or wif others. :)

2006-03-24T18:20:00.000-08:00

Yesterday's Apm was okay.
Some of the songs were unfamiliar so I'm not tat happy wif most of the performance. :( however, I was 'partly melting' when mawi sang gadis melayu.. Sedaaapnyee... hehe.. N surprisingly, i was xcited watching Apm.. hmm? peterpan:scream! taufik:scream! mawi:yeay! nurul ajai : da lame tk nmpk dorg! so unlike me. hehe. but i had fun though. hehe.

Yet, despite the xcitement...
Deep inside there's sadness. Left 5 more days with the kids. :( Similar to miftah n fara, I love and adore these kids. They can easily put a smile on us and make us laugh our hearts out. They make us feel easy and contented when we're having personal probs. They brighten our days. Honestly. Though from time to time we have to deal wif the active ones who made us shout and mad at times, we still love them. But.. We're left wif only 5 days to spend time wif them!!

I'm gonna miss my lil sufi who will go ... "ah ..! ah.! ah..!" and look for me when die kene kacau dgn his peers. Gonna miss ariq who will always call "teater, teater.." and when we don look at him, he will shout "teater! teater!!" hehe.. then either he'll complain or mumble something. hehe. Then, there's the baby. Diyana. She's sooo small, she cant speak yet, she's still a baby. arnd 20 mths now?? Me n my form teacher will call her "ketik! cit-not-net!". n now she's starting to talk n getting clever from day to day. Haiz.. gonna miss this cutie. I'm gonna miss all the kids!

Ok, so today at 2 there'll b a class wif dr.Fathi from marsah. :) this means tat today, after 4 mths, I'm gonna stat my learning engine. hehe.. da karat da. till then, miss die. hmm.

2006-03-20T03:55:00.000-08:00

Met my sweeetiees... :)
I feel sooo easy when I'm with them.
1 goal accomplished : didnt get angry with any of them.
though thoyyibah tumpahkan air.
but then kesian, die trus terdiam, tgkkan the puddle of water. hehe.

however..
since the treat from k.khairiyah,
I've prepared myself mentally
that there's a big possibility
that we have to go when the contract is over.
coz its just that they cant pay.. 500 for the three of us.
yeah, quite a some huh when u total up.
So.. if we are only needed during the weekends..
guess.. oh no. oh no. oh no. :( :( :(
I love my sweeties.
Can u let us to b wif them till the end of may? pleeease??

Anyway.. There's this small voice in me.
A voice which kind of advocate me.
Errrgh, i really dun like that.
I noe that I haf to put trust in him.
But then, sumtyms my mind just cant help it.
Different kinds of possibilities or imaginations
will appear in this dreamy mind.
I try to always say.. Dun think much bout it.
Whatever it is, serahkan kpd Allah.
Just trust him n his words..
Hmm... Noti voice n noti me. But..
I'm trying my best not to get influnced wif those voice!! :p

Anw,Just now I came across some arabic syi'ir.
The syi'ir from imam syafi'i really fascinate me.
Hoping that I shall came across more syi'ir
which are easy to comprehend and nice to read.
Till then, OUUTTZ!!

2006-03-19T04:31:00.001-08:00

Tomorrow school's gonna reopen! yeay!!
I'm gonna meet my sweeties.. :) my BOYS and GIRLS!
Wee~ windu sufiii!! ariiiq! hanaa! babiiiie diayanaaa! and yg lain2!! hehe

Insya Allah tomorrow, i'm gonna try to apply sum of what i've learnt at the workshop. Insya Allah.

Anw, td klua gan dorg abe jln terhincut2... pastu dorg make fun.. hehe.. kurg asam korg! hehe.. but its nice to meet my frens again. I'm happy tat we're in the same badge!
Ok, ouuutz!!

2006-03-17T22:36:00.000-08:00

YESTERDAY, FRIDAY. 17/03

Firstly, went to a workshop over at my workplace.
A workshop on children's development.
Personal comment :
Interesting. I learnt new things on the ways of handling children especially those with difficult behaviour.
Very good. It makes me realize on my mistakes and show me ways to improve them. It boost my spirit to work professionally - for the kids and for my own benefit.
Overall, the workshop caught my interest as it focuses more on children's development and psychology. Great huh, just my scope of interest. There's the interest in me to learn more. If only there's a way I can sit with someone like my V.P who has a degree in this area.

Secondly, after the workshop, i helped out my colleague in shifting the things around in the classroom. When it was 5 plus, we were shifting a tv from the main centre to the other alamin centre with a trolley. Just the two of us. Well, when we finally finished, tat is nearly 6, i was saying, "girl power sey" .. coz we were near to success. The only thing left is to carry the new tv onto a shelf. But, unfortunately, fate just wanna test me. :) As we were so tired, we lost balanced while carrying the tv and so... the tv terjatoh n terhempas my toe! hehe.. The sound was loud n so my other colleague rushed into the class. they were shocked with the loud sound. And as i opened my shoe.. there u go... my toe was "beating" and the blood was blot inside. I was laughing while the others panicked. hehe. My v.p gave me money n i was told to meet the doc immediately. So i went wif my v.p n colleague as my companies. Later, to my surprise, the doc said he'll drill a small hole in my toe nail in order to let the blood clot to be squeezed out. hehe. I was slosing my eyes. hehehe.

Thirdly, later at night, i decided to finally reply to his msgs as i felt calmer yesterday. I just hope tat Allah will grant my prayers n his "resolution" will become a reality. looking for a come back. :)

2006-03-10T03:41:00.000-08:00

Errkk..!
Thn ni akuu byk sakit... haizz.... Asek M.C je... and i dun like to take M.C and waste my tym to see doc... tp thn ni ku byk menyerah, terpakse jgk pergi, like it or not.... ssungguhnye thn ni bile sakit, trase sakit sakit sgt n tertekan...

Tp... hr wed yg lps ni ku btol2 sakit.. n plg worse utk thn ni (so far).
Had my break at 10am.. Beli nasi kat kedai 'makcik cramp'. mule2 je, dr pg da rase bdn tk sdp, sbb mmg selseme n sakit tekak, n bdn mmg lemah. Bile tgh mkn tu je da rase mcm terpakse, mcm tk slere.. Lps tu, msk klass, mntk mnyak angin. Then.. dgn terpakse, ku baring skejap at the back of the klass... Guess wat, during 2nd session, da makin truk, makin pening. Tp ku pakse diri tlg Tchr Aisah. Then... Ku muntah. so, tats when it starts... ku munta 2 kali kat tmpt keje. On the way balek, gah jln, munta lagi. :( smpai umah, klam kabut mkn ubat n isi perut. then tdo.. igtkan da ok.. pastuu.. muntah lg!! ergh... dan dr situ, kul 5 tu, ku muntah2 for every half hour smpai kul 7 lbh, da lost count. Pergi doc, dpt injection. Doctor bg 2 days mc, ubat gastric, ubat thn muntah n panadol for my headache. Lua clinic, munta lg, smpai uma, munta2 lg. munta day sey... hehe... lps tu pasrah, mkn ubat, then tdo... adooii.....

the next day, muke da mcm zombie... buruk... mak kate, mate da blue black.. ish ish.. so, kene gastric campur food poisoning n skrg ni, baruu rase better. alhamdulillah. just wanna share my experience of muntah2.. eee.... na'uzubillah, jgnlah kene kat kitorg. merana n tertekan..

2006-02-23T07:25:00.000-08:00

:) Alhamdulillah, today n last nite, I'm blessed with a sincere happiness, inside here.
Hamdan lillah.. But for how long will it last?? I hope, it wont go away...

Last nite ... Org jauh call and dapat talk,wlupun skejap.
Today ... Excited nak pergi KL esk hehe..

So.. Tomorrow I'm going to KL, my sepupu is marrying anak org berada kat sane.. bluueekss! hehe.. so, esk about 50-60 of my extended family will be driving to KL... Nasib baik jgk esk a lvl result tk klua, klw tdk... dunno lah how...

So.. I just wanna haf fun, ni kire holiday skali.. I wanna enjoy myself wif my spupu.. hee.. Wanna b happy! happy!

But.. kinda sad coz esk mif's bday!! abe tk dpt celebrate ckit gan die.. alahai.. tkpelah, still.....
To nurmiftah... Happy 20th bday!!!!! Sanah hilwah!! oit.. ku tknk belikan bk OP utk kau.. bluuekkss!! kental ah buku tu.. hehe.. anw,wish u success in life n hereafter, as well as happiness.. *winks* hope you enjoy ur bday my dear friend!

....its life

2006-02-20T00:10:00.000-08:00

Try to smile and hide the sorrow .. :)
Try to laugh and hide the problems
Try to babble and hide the emptiness

When u are joyous and made contented, it feels like you're flying..
And not only do you smile on the outside, but you're beaming in the inside.
You wish that the moment will not end..

When you are down and hurt, it feels like you're in a dark corner, where nobody notice you
And you cant help it, but to let yourslef flood in tears, literally and in your heart.
And that's when you feel like shouting out your agony.. and as though you're dead inside.

Hollow in there. Only solitude.
Hoping greatly for the "light", to torch the way out of this darkness.
Till then... Struggle to be strong.

Smile to make yourself feel light and be strong

2006-02-14T05:42:00.000-08:00

hey ppl..
Yesterday, I came across this song from BSB, entitled 'never gone'.
aaaaaaaaaahhhhhh!! the lyrics is just great!! and the song is nice too!! I'm enjoying the song.. for its meaningful to me... :) here you go!

((I really miss you
There's something that I gotta say

The things we did, the things we said
Keep coming back to me and make me smile again
You showed me how to face the truth
Everything that's good in me I owe to you

Though the distance that's between us
Now may seem to be too far
It will never seperate us
Deep inside I know you are

Never gone, never far
In my heart is where you are
Always close, everyday
Every step along the way
Even though for now we've gotta say goodbye
I know you will be forever in my life (yeah)
Never gone

No no no
I walk alone these empty streets
There is not a second you're not here with me
The love you gave, the grace you've shown
Will always give me strength and be my cornerstone ))

:) i just wanna share tat its not easy when someone special is way distance apart from you, especially when the situation juz aint making things any easier. There is a need for lots of patience, understanding and trust.

Due to our future, in order to seek 'ilm lillah hi ta'aala, we need to say "goodbye" for some time(some time?? hehe) to them. But, let's hope its just for a couple of years and tat we shall "meet" them again.

--Though we are distance apart, in my heart is where you are.
Though I'm walking in this street alone, without you really here, but the love you've shown, the bond we still hold, will give me strength from time to time--

today is 14. :)

2006-02-07T05:39:00.000-08:00

Aloha!
Da lame kan tk update,coz lmbt sgt nk upload gamba and tkde bende nk update.. hehe..
Skrg, gamba ade and ade new entry...

Ok... Last SATURDAY, guess what? Ahakz, two ladies went to orchard together... :p Da lame sey tk ke sane,summmore gan sri AJE, hehe...

Initially, we planned to go there in order to shop for presents... But then, on our way, we decided to catch a movie! Thou I was looking forward to watch I'm not stupid too, but dick and jane was hilarious and fun! hee.. I was happy.. da lame jgk tk tgk wayang,laz was narni :) Later, we shop for the presents.. hehe.. pnt dan lapa, so mkn kat far east, tmpt yg die slalu bwk me.. :) ddk kat same table lak tu..

kat wayang :p

makan time

finally,we bought the things.. sri da bg,me gah tggu the person nye bday.

SUNDAY...

went to farah's jemputan. Miftah came to my home first then we met the others at simei mrt. Jln dulu n makan.. dan tkejot bile ternmpk aleh dgn die. hehe.. gamba....

on our way

wif adek pengantin

the guyz

2006-01-30T02:52:00.000-08:00

Awal muharram is finally here.

Hmm.. I dont have any resolutions for my new yr but I do have some for the new Islam year.

Generally speaking, I want to change to the better. I really hope that this time I WILL change to the better and that I shall get support from those who I need. hmm.. it's not an easy task though but I will try my best insya Allah. May this spirit be burning till I finally achieve it.

Finally, i wish you all muslims slamat thn baru hijrah, kullu 'am wa antum bikhair. Thn baru, azam baru. :)

2006-01-26T23:19:00.000-08:00

Helo!

Ok... So my blog da jd mcm kubur kn? No new updates.. Well, not my fault.. Unfortunately my internet had some problems weeks ago... So now its fine... I shall update when i feel like it lah, coz i'm not in the mood to blog..

Hmm...Oklah, short brief of what i'm doing at this moment... yeah, I'm one of the asst teacher at al-amin kindergarten like mifta n fara. The job is ok,it is a part-time job, from 8-2. The kids.. hee.. woa.. some of them are adorable but some of them.. aduhai! nnti ku buang korg kat tingkap baru tau. hehe... still, I love ariq! hehe.. he's gonna grow to be handsome guy.. and he's cute too... hehe.. i like it when he cries coz he looks cute when he does.. hehe.. and there's also adly or shud i say, 'arwisy'? hehe.. another cute kid who i like to tease.. these kids will make me smile though i'm in a bad mood...

i'm also tutoring my jiran. tat's all lah... other than that..

hmm... life juz aint getting any easier for me. really. ntahlah, i just hope there is sum1 who can hear me out and everything will turn out fine soon. i really hope so...

as for today, i'm on MC.. jangkit budak2... and there's 4 days of holidays ahead! and esk tk silap klua gaji.. yippeee!!! hehe

2005-12-17T06:00:00.000-08:00

"so far so good?" hehehehe
here's the story..........................
Today... 3 peeps went to 'interview' - namely,salman,farah n myself.

We met at raffles and.. Wait for my fren to fetch us to his working place. So, we waited for Mr.Junaidi. We were like, "eh,tu eh die?" hehe, coz i don't know him in person. Then, I saw this guy wif a blazer on walking and I was like, "eh,tu ke.. alemak!" hehe... Then, as he approached us, we were... "oh2!", coz he was in his blazer.. u noe, office style.. errkk! and he asked, "sape kat sini nisaa?" and me in my nervous-self, i half raised my hand.. haha.. mepek k..

So, we walked to his office.. We talked but I was out of words, nervous ah.. hehe.. When we reached the place, we were.. "ni eh tmpt die.. oh2.. keje ape ni??" hehe...
Naik tgkt 10.. woa.. hehe... Klua je, cheh... hehe... junaidi showed us around... and later he explained to us...... a long presentation indeed... kesian sey tkg die, pnjang die bbual... msti pnt.... working hard huh this guy. Later, we were instructed to go into this room, its a senior's room.. Mr steven. hee.. he was verrryy funny... and ... he cant stop using this phrase "so far so good?" hehe... Finally, salman n farah were interested but I'm left with a dilemma! erk!!

junaidi is willing to help in trainin me, but I myself am not too sure if this is my cup of tea.. oh man... oh man.... donno ah!!!
so, basically that's our experience in finding a job part..?? hee.. for me, part 3 heh?

J U S T

2005-12-05T02:46:00.000-08:00

Just what is happening to my life?
Just what kind of life am I leading rite now?
Just what mistake had I done?

Just why do you have to change?
Just why do I have to suffer emotionally?
Just why do I have to be in deep darkness and loneliness??

Just where is the brightness of my life?
Just where is the you that I once knew?
Just where is the real me???

2005-12-01T04:20:00.000-08:00

+30th november 2005+

I finally got to watched Harry Potter yesterday! wee~ Been waitin to catch it.. Well, it was full of fun! I really enjoyed the show and didnt regret spending $14 on it.. hee... I would like to buy a dvd of it! yehaa~ hehe

After a movie of Harry potter, went to accompany my friends to arcade... Supported and cheered for him also.. hehe... Got 2nd place for daytona and reached finals for soccer.. not bad... tgklah sape yg support eh... hehehe

Today? Early in the mornin, sri msged and called me... She suggested tat we go look for jobs today.. So, we planned to meet up at 1245 wif farah as sri has an interview wif Al-Iman at 11.. And she did it... She got a job as a teacher's aid... =) way to go my friend! Later, she came to my house and arranged my certificates for me.. hee... Met fara at the void deck and we were off to Al-Amin near my home.. Got there wif sri as the first to ask " a'kum, ade kerja kosong tak?" hehe... So... We filled the form and fara... hee... fara got excited wif some parts of the form... "Status... Spouse name... bla bla bla" hehe... We are to wait for a call to to interview... Looking forward to it!

Had our lite lunch at KFC and walked to Afghanistan.. Searched for AlMubarakah.. Erk... To go there... Alemakz.. hehe.. then again.. sri stat the question.. hehe... we waited and later did wat the lady told us to... She said the pengarah will give us a call later... Oritez then.. hmm.. personally... i'm not tat fond of almubarakah... hee.. but there's no harm in tryin rite..

Later, we continued our journey to bugis.. erk.. hehehe... where to? Raffles med hospital.. kwang3... applying for a post as... patient service assistant.. hahaha.. we had no idea wat the job really was.... so, we juz gambled and filled the form but farah gave up when she juz filled a page of the form.. hehe... I was feelin rather paisey and nervous then when we went to the toilet with the intention to take wudhu', tp qiblat tk tahu.. so naik balek tmpt interview.. baruu je ddk... "miss Khairunnisaa" ... terkejot sey!!!! hehehe.. si sri da kekek sorg2... adeih.. hehe... smpai kat dlm bilik tu... hehe... die tny lah soaln biase2, psl particulars... then.. hehe.. die tny hobbies... then, die blg lah keje die mcm mane........ aduhai! hehe... die kate, u will me located at changi airport, but also maybe at wdlands chckpoint or tuas... are u ok wif tat? aku suit ok je!! haha.. pdhal dlm hati aku, gile ke smpai kat wdlands n tuas.. hehe... then die kate, the working hrs will b in shifts n u need to b ready 24 hours.. do u mind? aku suit aku tk mind.. haha... pdhal, eh, ape ni, freedom disekat lak... relek sudah.. hehe.. die kate, u will b workin under the hot sun n dealin wif rough ppl, will u b able to do it? cheh.. aku.. ok2... hahahah.... kekek lah.. pdhal dlm hati, ni klw dpt, ku tolak mentah2....... hehehe... kekek lah....... seme die tny, aku ok kan je... hehe... mepek btol... errkk!!

pastu kitorg pi national lib, igt nk apply keje kat sane, then tk tahu camne n da pnt, so wat bodo je.. pi mamam n take a taxi home.. hehe... tu je!!! tp... i want a work which i'm comfortable wif asap coz i'm bored already lazyin arnd at home!

2005-11-26T20:30:00.000-08:00

Initially, I planned to go out alone today, but i ended up spending my time at home, AGAIN.
hee... Dgr lagu, tgk tv, tdo n baruu ni surf net to get more info on association out there such as mendaki, saff etc.. mmg dr sblm ttp skool, da interested nk join... and at teh moment, i've not yet made any decision on which to choose... another thing, kinda gah cari keje, but more to haf workin experience and fill my time. Rite now, my aim is islamic kindergarten. Waitin for the format to write a resume from sri. hee

Well, yesterday kinda talk wif him and half burst my feelings. He asked me to give him some tym for him to think. Ptg td, he msg and .. alhamdulillah... I just hope that his words are true and i pray that we'll b back to where we once were... Dear happiness, do come in my way will ya?

2005-11-25T13:30:00.000-08:00

Guess what?? We are free from exams!!!!
After arnd 2 mths, we are "exam-free"!!! wit wit! hehe

Every1 was happy when it finally ends.. So, we went to beach road to fill our stomach, solat and.... Bowling and Pooling! ahakz! it was tonnes of fun! kecoh n gerek banget.. And thanks to shifu Muhaimin for teaching sum of us the rite way to bowl.. hehe..

yeah, so i'm done wif my exam, i'm happy wif that. But, i'm expectin the worse from my result, seriously. biar ah.

So.. Gonna haf a long holiday ahead... to further my studies, the intake will b around august.. Woa! hehe..

hmm... I'm hoping for a nice holiday... For a happy one... But,things are just getting hard around me.. I'm confuse. I'm just... hoping... hoping and hoping.. for the old days

2005-11-20T14:36:00.000-08:00

Help!!
No mood to study!!
I end up pakse2 diri utk blaja.. tp mcm tk msk sepenuhnye.. arrghh! tk sukela mcm ni! blaja main2... haiz.. esk malasnye nk amek xm, kene karang lak tu.. hmmph! asl mcm nk moody gitu? alemak.... mcm nk tantrum je... mcm nk pekik.. hmmph... geram geram geram.................. tknk amek xm lg lah! penat sey....... 3 rounds of examination....... entah2 esk hentam lagi.. haha...

take us for a ride again shyd! Ya Rabb!

2005-11-19T18:09:00.000-08:00

Chak!!
Haha.. Da lame sey tk post an entry!! Rindu lakz!

Otey!
Wee~~ Hr thurs 17 nov, me + my classmates + yg de kene mengenen gan kitorg, jln raye same2!! Naik bus 40 seater issit? hehe... Warne merah, tp kitorg cume de arnd 31. Tp best! Klw laz yr, mendak, thn ni lbh meriah.. hehe.. gan bdk llki nyanyi2. Mule kul 10, mif's house was the first stop! Laz house? Shyd!! hee.. Kat bukit batok sey!! kul 11 baru kitorg klua dr uma die! Can u believe it?? Trus naik taxi ah, ape lg!! hehe... Bdk llki smpat posing kt tgh2 road.. hehe

Wohoo~~ Semlm plg gerek!!!! Wee~~~ 18nov!! Wee~~~ Wee~~~!!!! hehehe
5 gadis berjalan raye dengan kereta honda matrix! Ya Rabb! Shyd is our super-cool driver!! hehe... Die lari sampai 100 sey kat expressway - i mean, she's a beginner n a grl summore... jarang sey a beginner wat camtu! baik ah shyd! hehe... tp maintain ah, seram jgk aku.. hehe
well.. kitorg de sesat2, esp kat b.reservoir.. ade org tu, kampung halaman sendiri pun tp sesat tau.. hehe.. but its ok!! tu yg gerek tu!! hehe.. Woa! kite dpt cover 9 uma! hehe... uma plg lame? kat serangoon and b.reservoir.. kat serangoon --> bual psl tarannum.. kat b.reservoir--> kene interview... hehe... all in all, it was super great! wlupun de bnde yg berlaku yg aku tk suke kn....
still, 4.5/5 ah! Shyd!! take us for a ride again!!!!!

2005-10-16T06:40:00.000-07:00

wohoo~~
it has been a long tym since I've enjoyed my tym... w/o any feeling to rush or worry bout my studies... wee~~ indeed... nikmat!! hehe...

I've been lazying around these 2 days.... saturday n sunday...
not a single page of my book has been touched! haha... hehe...

i watched 2 vcds altogether these 2 days... and both satisfied me... i watched "GGPP" - Gila gila pengantin popular and "Tentang Dia"... great movies i got to say...

Most of my time was also spent wif surfing the net - searching for blog skins, changing my blogskin, editing pictures, playing games at shockwave, msn etc.. hee...

Today, after like... a yr? no... too long... mayb like many months... 7 or 8 mths... i played PS2... hehe... 3 games in a row till i'm bored...

wee~~ i miss doing all these stuff!! haha... pagel me... but, mayb tomorrow gotto get started again... sastera n bm is gonna be our first A lvl paper!

and tomorrow or the day after or the day after it... we gonna get our A lvl prelim papers... oh-oh!! i've wrote craps in my paper... let's juz wait our results k.. hehe... till then, haf fun n relaaaaxx!!!

2005-09-23T23:23:00.000-07:00

boo! hehe
yeah! time to update this dull blog... =)

eh, amcm blh update? yeah... xm is still here.... BUT.. hee... today calls for a "half-day-rest".. tomorrow there's tauhid+mantiq paper which hee... tat wednesday, the test was to b delayed till tomorrow when we were ready to write... y? yeah.. hee.. this grl made a noise "eek!" coz she saw the ans sheet together with the question paper.. hehehe... style btol.... but we haf to b amanah rite? =) and so.......... tomorrow is supposed to be the day i would laze myself abit... tot of wakin up at 9.. but then, tsk.. nvm...

wohoo~ still! today i'm gonna partly rest my mind... hee... after this update, tym to eat! nasi ayam... then, dvd!! yeah! I've been aimin for it for a couple of days already.. oh yesh, not to forget tat later i haf to take my long nap! wee~ hehe... and arnd 4,yeah... get back to ur bk!! ahakz... i hope i've not yet forgotten what i've memorized.. pls don't...

oh yesh... sjauh ni... subject yg lain, ok2 lah... but... only 1 which really disappoints me... well, like ppl said, gotta tawakkal n doa... insya Allah... jus wait for the results n redha... rite? k lah... hehe... saje je update... haf a nice rest to those who r restin their minds for today!

12 sept 2005 - she's 18!

2005-09-12T04:49:00.000-07:00

Hey ya!! wee~
My mood? Haapppiiee.....!!! hee...

Thanks to you guyz - my frens who made me smile rite from the mornin till now and undoubtedly, in the future bile terigt balek memori nari.. hee...

Oh-Oh... it seems that i can't stop smiling rite now... hehe... juz thinking back at how my frens were today... hee.... they were so sweet... heee!! thank u!! u guyz leave me wif so many sweet memories today! gonna miss this moment startin from nxt yr....

i like all the presents that i received... hee... it's you thot that counts... thank u! ah... ape die fakhrur? sape punye bday angkat tgn? k... kte angkat tgn!!! hehehe.... then.... terharu n hapi gile bile bkk hadiah from my partner... auuuuww!!! it is sooo sweeeeeeeeeeeeeet!!!!! can't help it!! a frame yg trtulis pdnye "best friends forever" and she placed our picture there!!! hee... thanks to you!! and thanks to all!!

yeah... hee... not to forget, now i have a new friend... teddy! hehehe... he's cute!! hehe... thanks to u who gave me.... hee... yeay!! besides that, i can;t beleive that some of my frens still remember my bday, like aisyah n some other friends of mine... i appreciate it... and dear cousins, thanks for the nice card n mms!! hehe... me am happy! k.. khai... stop it.. hehe... I'm happy for the thoughts and wish from my frens and cousins.... thanks again.....

2005-07-16T13:55:00.000-07:00

Yeah! Cheers for perbayu! hee...
Manifestasi 2005 (mwti) anjuran perbayu was great, though there were some technical problems...

But,it was great.... They put in great effort in making it a success... I've got to say, I'm proud wif the effort you guys have put... And am happy that asmara dana jadi jgk akhirnye.... Tak la korg sedih kan.... Oh yesh, psl asmara dana tu... hehe... Wlupun nmpk slh2, still, power la u guys!! Well, nk blaja joget tu gan farah tk ksampaian ah... hehe...

Hmm... Just now, most of us didn't follow ustz's instruction... So sorry, it's not that we just deliberately don't want to help... But......... There are still lots to cover for sastera... Even cikgu mentioned that, the ukhrawi class tk paya blaja drama la, akademik je... Huh? Coz we are running out of time.... That's how our situation is.... We just can't afford to loose any more time for sastera...... Scare peribadi, sori (klw ade) kpd pihak yg kurg puas hati dgn sikap kitorg td.... That's all... No more comment... Cume klw ade kaitan gan naadi ke, then, thanks sbb perna tlg dulu (bg sape yg bkn nadi dan tlg suq dulu)... Syukran lakum... Wa athlubul 'afwa minkum...

K la... itu aje... Tggal brp bulan lg je.... N I really am trying to avoid any conflicts wif my friends...
Erk!!

2005-07-15T17:50:00.000-07:00

Woa... Da lame sungguh tk update...
Sbb.....
Lately ade ckit bz....
Wif maulud, assignments and studies...

Nari sbb rajin ckit.... so update ah...

Hmmm.....
Td amek test Tauhid Usuluddin... Hmm... Ade lupe2, tp jwb aje... Tkpe, sbg latihan td... Tp style la test td.... hehe.... Blh mkn... Ktawe2 etc... Tp,mcm sedih kan,ade yg tak amek test tu... hmm... btol jgk kate ustz... kite da bsr... yes. hmm...

Erk! Yikes!!
Lg arnd 2 bln lbh to our prelims and........... A level!!!
And yet, kitorg mase lum prepare... Pljrn lg byk yg lum cover... Oh no...

Guys!! We've got to wake up!! We've got to start preparing and stop fooling around...... Argh.... (tat's for me too!!) we don't want to regret do we? And surely we don't expect a useless cert in the end.......... Ok....

It's time for us to make the best and strive for our dreams and future (quite world ah aku bbual... )
Wake up khairunnisaa!! wake up my friends!!

2005-06-19T20:50:00.000-07:00

Aloha!

How was my day?
Great! Sweet! Nice! Memorable.. Hehe...

>Accidentally met my fren,the red grl.. hehe... Surprisingly we were heading for the same destination, so we went together.. hehe...
>Ghost train was... Fooyo... Tk phm sgt... hehe... tp... Anjat la gegerl! Aaaaahh....! hehe... Dgr2 de org smpai sempat record lagu, amek gamba hantu tu.. hehe...
>Street fighter was enjoyable... hehe... My opponent has improved a lot....!
>mph? ohh no... was searching for an organizer, but it cost more than i thot! so... bought "chicken soup"... yea! n spent $6 for my fren on a comp book... (hehe... $6 je?)

---> Got beautiful keychains and a jubah from a fren & maknye... hehe... Nice! the kotak especially... Syukran!

Sweet memories brighten my day in future
and so I cherish them a lot

I'm Home!

2005-06-14T14:21:00.000-07:00

Chak! hehe... here I am! Back in Singapore...

Arrived Singapore yesterday morning, at around 7.30... Wow... The trip home was...EXHAUSTING! ... My dad drove from cameroon highlands to Singapore... Which was 45km+150km+350km= around 545 km... And so, my backbone hurts... ouch! hehe...

So... where did I went to?
KL(shopping) --> Genting highlands(theme park) --> Cameroon Highlands(tgk2 pemandangan yang lawa gile...)

Well.... Shopping tu cam biase ah, pnt gile... Yg gerek nye, theme park kt genting!! Termsk ni, kali ketige pi genting, tp yg dua kali sblm ni, hujan so tk dpt main theme park, but this tym, i finally get to experience the thrill rides! altogether, dpt naik seme rollercoaster die ( ade 4) including Corkscrew which is the most thrilling and challenging roller coaster there, where you can see gaung kt bwh tu... hehe... and another ride yg mencaba is the "Spaceshot"... Kes bende tu bwk kte naik smpai ku nmpk kabus je then tibe2 je turun straight... heheh... mcm2 lg ah...

As for cameroon... tmpt die sejuk n pemandang die... fooooooh! power... lawa gile... mcm kt europe sey trase.. hehe...

so,I'm back, n I've got sum stuff to do b4 sch reopens....

Going for a holiday

2005-06-09T23:45:00.000-07:00

In just few hours from now, I'll be leaving singapore for... oh well, again... Kuala Lumpur... Next, will be Genting Highlands and finally maybe Cherating, Pahang...
Initially, we planned to fly to Jakarta but unfotunately, the planes were fully booked.... So, we had to change our plan...
Actually, I'm not excited as before... Haiz........... Not really sure why... Mayb coz this time the "pack" is getting smaller... We're not renting a van as we usually did but we're going with my father's car... So, there's me, my dad, my mum, my auntie, and my two cousins... that's all... yeah, still hope it would be a nice holiday... hope to enjoy myself before I get back to work...
As for yesterday, yikes! How could I be like that? That's quite surprising.... Still, I wanna say thanks to my close fren for his time and company last nite... At least you got me contented... hee.. thanks.... It was great talking, just like our old days... Miss it...
And I pray that my friend who's perfoming umrah right now is doing just fine... =) ( da botak ke? hehe...)
Till then, see you guys later... be back maybe on Monday... Insya Allah.

Leadership camp -Taking charge, you rock!

2005-06-02T21:46:00.000-07:00

L-I-S-A
Taking Charge!
Leadership!
Yeay!!!

We're back from the camp!

Sweet memories tag along with us
This camp has left us quite a number of sweet memories to be kept in our mind and hearts as we go along with our life. Right guys?

This may be our last camp together *bohoo* how sad that is.... Oh man...

All of us had a bundle of fun... The games! They were splendid! My fav was the pyramid game... Wohoo! Nxt was the turtle game... Halimah got buried! hehe... The talk? Marvellous! hehe... We learnt new things from the camp. We gained experience.

My team?
Together, we're the...
Untouchables!!!
Our cheer ...
Pegang jgn sebarang pegang
Slh pegang buruk padahnya
te ni ni nit nit
Like no others lah motonya
###
Hold, hold dun anyhow hold
Wait your kepala got hole
Kite kat sini nak haf fun
Safety first last jangan!!!
(Cheer ni tkde kene mengene gan ssiape ye... jus for fun)

We got third place... hehe... our team got lots of injuries... our team was quite weak, but we're spiritually strong... hehe... At least we didn't got last, n tat's one of our main mission!

The guilt
That's the bitter part of the camp. We did lots of mistakes, big mistakes. We didn't realize it until ditegur.
Then, ish... I was shouting while playing the games... oh... where has my pride gone to? bro haz was watching... haiz...
Whatever the mistakes that we've done, i bet, we felt the pang of guilt and we're sorry bout it... right?

2005-05-29T19:01:00.000-07:00

Hey guys!
If u're readin this entry on sunday, 29th May, how is it goin on wif ur preparatn?

Tomorrow.... Can't believe it... Tomorrow's the day... The last camp we'll be attending together!!! Nearly all preu2 students are going to Leadership camp, just a few going to Tawakkal...

Foooh... I'm done wif the packing, juz left few items more which I hope I won't forget to bring along tomorrow! Well.. there are my haversack which of course is bulging... hhehe... also, a plastic beg consist of a medium size haversack for the amazin race and my mug and toiletries... eeeww! so many things to "angkut"!

So.... My teammates?
>Tajuddin
>Fahmi
>Farah
>Halimah
>Sharifah Zaharah
>Aishah Salim

We're juz gonna haf fun and do our best....

I'm just quite nervous... What has been planned for the camp? hehe.... Yikes!!

So guys.... leadership campers 2005, are u ready??? are u up to the challenge?
Let's get it started n rock on!! chewah!!
sweet memories i hope, will be waiting for us....

Gooooooooooood luck for the challenge!

keadaan skool da bes prikse

2005-05-23T18:02:00.000-07:00

Yohoo...!
How was today?
Hee... Best jgk... Ade "permainan mecabar minda" anjuran perbayu which is adek bradek kpd quiz miQ ( ataupun sng kate, miq Ciplak... hehe ).. Mule2, ckit2,rmind me back of our miQ... AAA...HHH...!! Haiz... k.. tkpe2... it will go away soon...

Tp kan... yg plg gerek kt skool td, tgk shutter!! Wit-wit! Gerek ah.... hehe... Kte seme ramai2 tgk kt LT,tp... the bez part is, aku gan shid ddk sblh2, n mentang2lah kitorg da perna tgk, bdk2 seme terpekik terpekau ktakutan, ttp2 muke, kitorg kekek2.... aku seriusnye kekek sey... hehe..

Ahakz... k, i'll be updating it later... Esk wat ape agknye eh kt skool? hehe...

2005-05-15T10:09:00.000-07:00

Alhamdulillah...! We made it to miQ finals and though we failed to make some dreams come true, we managed to be in the runner-up position. Hamdan lillah!!

Well.... Personally, I'm quite satisfied with the position coz earlier I didn't placed any high hopes and perjuangan kitorang bersama sampai dpt ke final dah mcm satu mimpi kadang2, kalau fikirkan balik la.

Sebelum game semalam, byk dugaan juga yang kitorg face... Mencaba kesabaran sey... Sebelum game and during the game itself.

The supporters??
They were fabulous!! Seriously!! Bergema auditorium tu.. Kitorang ade la jgk rase mcm berjihad... Thanks u guys for supporting us! N sorry if kitorang ni menghampakan, but we tried n did our best... There were some mistakes, big ones, that we made as a team and we hope that the coming group will learn from the mistakes we made.

Hmmm...
Manis sungguh perjuangan kitorg bersame..... After this, I'm gonna miss this... Itulah yang terakhir pakai blazer untuk mewakili madrasah... Ish, sedih la pulak...

Akhir kate...
Perjuagan kitorang ni adalah kenangana manis buat diri ini...
Kita telah bekerjasama sbg 1 kumpulan...
"Hidup pejuang wak tanjong!" cheh!!
hehe...
(anw, lps xm, I'll upload some pictures here... bi iznillah... )

Disebabkan hari istimewa...

2005-04-28T09:21:00.000-07:00

Hey ya....!!
Tempat ni mmg da mendak kn lately? Mendak gile... Kalah kubur eh Aleh?
Well, wat to do, ku busy abes sey - it has been nearly a mth now since aku bz gile n balek lmbt je... Td je smpai umah kul 6.30! Fooh... penat...

So, tkde mase nk update... Though actually byk gak cite... But, psl today de special occasion, ku luangkan lah ckit mase to update....

SpEcIaL OcCaSsIoN oF tHe DaY: Farah's 18th bday!!!

So... Happy 18th birthday dear farah!!! ape yg aku msg kau td, ku btol2 hrp ianye dpt jd kenyataan... so....... hope that ko akn lbh byk hapi skrg n may ur problems be solved..... N i really hope that our friendship will be on good terms always.... Aaaamiin... I pray for ur happiness dear friend!! Hey! U're now officially considered as a young adult now!! Congrats.......

Tensed + Hectic

2005-04-08T19:59:00.000-07:00

... Signing In ...

Wow... Hari2 yang lepas ni sungguh la hectic n exhausting .

Semalam??
Aduhai...... The situation was tensed, I MYSELF was soo tensed. I hate it - bile keadaan sekeliling n diri ni sndiri dlm keadaan camtu. I tried to control my emotions, tried to hide i ,but somehow, ppl get to know... yikes.... Yeah, was stressed up yesterday... Really was... Alhamdulillah, finally, hati dorg terbuka utk co-operate wif us... I was grateful... Things were more systematic by then...

Today??
penat sey.... we did the lauhah for naadi's board.. hee... the family tree is the best! Mine n afad's leaves are in yellow which represents... Hee... "old" leaves which are about to fall..
It's not that kitorg tknk pikul tanggungjwb, tp, hmm... Tanggungjwb yg kitorg pegang ni sungguh mencaba... Bknnye nk mengeluh, tp... While in preu 2 mwti, with sooo many subjects (more than 20) for us to focus, with 2 major exams getting nearer n nearer... Furthermore, kitorg dua kene stat naadil lugha frum scratch... it's not an easy task. In addition, with not much support. And... Another factor to be considered... Afad n me... Kitorg tk pena ade xperience as a leader yg handle bende bsr camni... At least, kwn yg lain, like khairani, fadhli, mangkuk, dorg ade xperience... Hmm... But it's ok... Just that, sumtyms, stress nye tu menggunung.... I just need support n help from my friends n those who should be giving those to us... ( to partner, in case, by any chance, u are readin this, thanks for being there and I'm sorry psl semlm... coz kte ni mepek..)
Kepada teman2 yg terkene tempiasnye, jugak pada mereka yang bingit wif me, dan yg swaktu dgnnye, I would like to apologise ( in case u're reading this). I really hope that u guyz can understand the situation esp with us buu 'ul lugha coming up... There are lots of work that need to be done n we hope minggu b.arab akn berjln dgn lancar, berkesan, tnpe byk masalah... Biiznillah... So guys, I'm really sorry... Lbh2 lg yg bingit kt aku... Somtyms, aku pun terbingit kt org... But I won't hold any grudges, insya Allah..

Esk ade MIQ nye qualifying test, n lum prepare lg!! Oh no... Doa2 la kitorg dpt msk... Bkn tknk usehe, tp mase tk mengizinkn!! Wow... Buzy2... Penat2...

... Singning Out ...

Just wasn't my morning and their day

2005-04-01T19:54:00.000-08:00

Arnd 640 a.m, was standing near the phone and waiting for it to ring. But eventually it didn't ring so instead of waiting for Suliza to call, I tried to call her - but can't get through. So, I called farah, no response. Just a sec later, the phone rang and finally Suliza informed that she's about to go out. It was arnd 645 I guess.

We ( Fauzani, Ummu and I ) waited for pakcik, and when my shows arnd 7.05 am, we finally caught sight of the van. Yeah, we're late. Hmmm.... We were nervous of course. I tried to relax coz no matter what it is, we're still late. So, face it. Our names gonna get ticked on 'that' book.

We reached school at 7.25 a.m and pupils was just about to finished reciting the whole morning prayer. Ooopps! You guys are late, so... Sorry, stand outside. So, we did. We stood outside the school for approximately 40 mins?? Fooooh.... That's quite bad... Early friday morning, we didn't get the chance to recite yaasin together with the others, instead we were to stand outside our school with cars passing by and ppl too, who some may be wondering - whassup?? *shrug*

K, my legs were getting tired and so is my back ( my bag was on my shoulder for 40mins and I have my own probs). But, I thought, it's ok... We need to be punished for being late (thought initially it wasn't our fault... ). To me, I can accept the punishment.

When we finally got to step into the school... There goes the "heart-tearing" part.... Wow... WOW! Standing there, I was trying my best to calm myself down, to accept 'it' and to "redha"... Yeah, we're at fault for coming late, especially we are supposed to show good examples to the juniors... But.... Hmm... It's the first offence... haiz... Maybe, this is just how life is... Specifically, how a preu life is... Huh?? To my frens who cried, it's really bad to get a harsh scolding early in the morning and later things just weren't getting any better... I pity u guyz, but psl hal td pagi.. hmm... to me, let's not hold any grudges...

Here's the update

2005-03-27T20:24:00.000-08:00

Hey!!
It has been a long time since I last update this blog of mine.

Actually I wasn't in the mood and was sooo lazy to update.

Today? hee... Actually there's nothing much to write... But, pity those who visit my blog and find the same title "buddy,bait and holiday". Must be sickening and annoying huh? hehe...

What I wld like to say is that, hmmm... Why am I so lazy these days?? It's killing me... I have no mood to do my h/w. I guess this is the challenge for the last year huh? yeah, somehow, I've got to fight it.. But it's not that easy. I spent the 3 past days (fri,sat n sun) lazying around... Watched t.v, sleeping,surf the net, talking on the phone.. HAHA... That's so ridiculous for a final yr student! Actually, I had the plan to complete some parts of tauhid usul on "Hari Akhirat" but just now, as I opened the book, I felt the heavy weights placed on my eyes... Aaaarrgghh.... Ah yes! another thing, knp asik rase ngantok je lately?? Haiz..... Even during lessons... though I slept quite early the night before... EEE..! Geram ah...

buddy, bait & holiday!

2005-03-11T22:35:00.000-08:00

Quite much to write bout,
but 1st let me start with my happy story.

I was missing my buddy yesterday, really was.
Missed msging, missed the laughters, missed the jokes.
It has been like nearly a mth since we kept in touch
wif each other.
Till I thought our friendship had ended - just like that.
BUT, alhamdulillah!
Finally, my buddy msged me wif a new no. last night!
Weee~~ Was I happy and xcited?? hee....!!
We did sum cathcing up... hehe...
Felt like we are closer than before
Peace no war to my buddy!!

Today, yeah, went to visit Bait at Changi hospital
Pity her! She was shaking.
We went ramai2... hee...
The guys were like badut
but at least, their childish behaviour
joking around and stuff
made the patient smile... hee..!!
Let's pray for Baitina's speedy recovery guys!

One of the pic taken B4 visiting Bait.

But...
Another best part
THE ONE WEEK HOLIDAY I'VE BEEN WAITING FOR AND LOOKING FWD TO
IS FINALLY HERE.........!!!!
WOHOOOO........!!!
Lots of things to be done during this one whole coming week!

Till then... Njoy the holiday!
Make full use of it as much as u can!

I don't know

2005-03-09T21:44:00.000-08:00

Whassup wif my day?
Aarrghh...
Start off wif a headache just as i stepped into class this morning
Was really difficult
Was trying
to concentrate
but, instead...
I lay my head on the table
that's not good
really not good

The headache has been "coming"
anytime it wants to
for 3 straight days
The reason?
*shrug*
I don't know

Shut my eyes in the afternoon
Woke up arnd 6
(quite a long nap huh)
Then...
Felt sonething's not rite
What is it??
I don't know.

Out of the blue
thought of my buddy
or should i say
my used to be buddy??
Miss the friendship
What's wif the frienship?
Has it end?
I don't know
Did Tauhid Usul's assingment
on Mu'jizat
Thought of reading the papers
but
no mood
Trying to entertain myself
wif listening to songs
but
no mood
Why?
I don't know

I messaged a friend
Didn't reply
Until just a few mins ago
I was annoyed
Why?
I don't know!

Not only me, but my frens too..

2005-03-05T21:21:00.001-08:00

Wow! Life really isn't gettin any easier for us huh? Instead, things around us seemed to be getting more difficult for us to handle and face.

While myself m struggling ( or "striving" as suggested by K.'Izzah) Everyone around me.... is struggling wif his/her own life... trying to keep up with the pace, trying to calm down, trying to overcome the problems.

My partner, yeah, she herself is pretty much worried bout her studies, the coming major exams etc. With that, me m grateful that she's still here (she shud noe wat i mean...) n am giving me support... fooh... I'm really slacking but wif her as one of my "source of support", I'm trying my best, to stand again. but... I need time...

Then, arnd 12 pm just now, my HP beeps and "B.B-Hp" appears on the top of my hp's screen (it's miftah...) Hmm... Then, yeah... She too has sum kinda prob. But she still has not yet informed me wat's botherin her, insya Allah, kul 2 nnti...

Next, just blog-hopped Fara's blog... N... Was surprised wif the latest update. Really. I mean, I can kinda guessed that u're not that happy wif us going home straight coz then u're left alone. But, i dunno if i made any impact... hmm... I wld like to support u fara, really. I'm trying to oragnize my life - my studies, my friendships, my personal prob etc. Even i missed the tym when the 4 us were close toghether... tp mase n keadaan tk mengizinkan. Noe what, Sri n I was thinking of group study... Mayb, we can form a group farah. Mayb once in a wk? We'll stay back, have sum discussions... N make our way home together... Klw everyday, mayb, we can't afford to do so... How's that fara? N guys? How's that? ( include : mif, aleh, shid... yg bace update ni la... hee.. )

i think, semangat satu kelas mcm da hilang... We need to support n encsourage each other. Well, I missed semangat berjuang n competing tym sec4.. Klw blh hidupkan balek, gerek kan.... Think bout it. A lvl n azhar exams coming in our way soooooon....!!!

Seme org mesti gah de prob sendiri... We need to give support... Rite??

Mcm mane ni...

2005-03-04T21:22:00.000-08:00

Hey guys...

My mood : Low self-esteem, confused, mcm2 kat otak, worried...

Firstly, lately, mcm2 perkare yg berlaku in my life. Mostly, kinda shockin... Mcm kene kejutan elektrik jap sey... Plajaran, peribadi, etc

Trase that I'm slackin lately - Serious, no kiddin. Kt klass, kadg2 tk pay attention, n asik ngantok je... Hate it! H/w pon wat tk btol... Oh man... Lg2 plajaran for A lvl - trase lost sey... esp, GP!!! Allah aje tahu ape yg ku rase skrg ni...

Td result A lvl... I was shocked wif it... Pening sey... Mcm mane gan kitorg??? Oh man.... Personally, aku tk ready utk amek GP thn ni... Mcm mane ni???

I feel that my life is not organised... dah berkecamuk......................

Jalan yang mana harus ku pilih?

2005-02-26T21:33:00.000-08:00

Di sini
ku terhenti
berfikir sejenak
jalan yang mana harus dipilih
jalan yang mana tepat buat diri
sungguh aneh
kehidupanku akhir-akhir ini
namun ku akur
Takdir telah mengambil tempat

(i)
Diri yang sememangnya
benci pada penipuan
lalu
kejujuran menjadi persoalan
cuba ditepis
jauh dari kotak fikiran
namun curiga menghantui diri

(ii)
Pengakuan di luar dugaan
diterima dengan minda terbuka
biarpun menambahkan lagi
dilemma yang kian bertahta
masa berlalu
seketika dipisahkan
tapi kemudian disambungkan semula
tiada ku ragui
kejujuran jua keikhlasan

Mencerminkan diriku?

2005-02-24T20:41:00.000-08:00

Hari ni, tym kelas sastera, I learned a sajak which... I like very much... even though bahasenye tk bgitu metaforika...

It's frum "ajaki"

"Seorang yang bernama lelaki" (which means, manusia... not just guys)

Kehidupan tidaklah seindah mimpi
Harapan-harapan yang belum selesai
cinta bermula dari hati yang mengenal
antara kejujuran dan kehancuran
saling bergandingan
mereka yang lemah mudah terpedaya
bakal menjadi mangsa
manusia pendusta

Aku selalu mencari hakikat realiti
hidup penuh tanda tanya bak teka teki
gelora yang melanda kamar hati
adalah lantaran jiwa tak pernah tenang
bak dada pantai dipukul gelombang.

Namun aku masih percaya pada bisikan hati
kejujuran dan kesetiaan
adalah mahkota
seorang yang bernama lelaki(mksudnye, manusia, bkn llki aje)

>>>I left one untai... tp tige untai ni... kinda reflect me... hmm... while cikgu was xplainin, I was thinkin...

The msg & the keychain.

2005-02-18T02:09:00.000-08:00

Oh no...!!!

Things around me just seemed to be not right, lately, ESP last night! And there's quite a number of questions bogglin in my mind... unanswered...
I kinda hate for wat happened last nite. 1stly, there is this sum1 who seemed diff, whassup??? Till now, still the same. I dun understan... I really don't. Argh! the questions are being added...

Then, more frustrating.... More heartbreaking... A friend of mine whose our frenship is one of those that I really really treasure & hope to keep till our last breath - bimasyi atillah waiznihi, but.... I sent a fwd msg to this friend, and guess wat...? I received a msg askin "Sape ni?". Can u beleive it... "Sape ni?" eh!!! Argh!!! Whassup dgn hp die? Or die da delete my no.?? Pedih sey bace tat msg. Die mase tk tahu that it was me. Then, as though a coincidence, I woke up early this morning and when I was just about to leave my home, I grabbed my key and.... The friendship keychain... Oh man! The bear tercabut frum the "ring"... Such a coincidence!! Well... But... Lbh menyedihkan skrg ni, inikah noktahnya persahabatan kitorg? Mcm gini ke ia perlu berakhir??

Sincerity,the question

2005-02-17T20:30:00.001-08:00

That question...
surprised me
wait for my answer
for,the answer is still not clear
for the time being

Searching...
Am I
deep inside
do be patient
not to repeat my mistkes
no repeatation of my history
the right decision to be made
my hopes for now

Afraid to give
Scared of my own moves
More importantly
the sincerity
which has been a big question mark
is this the truth
or just....

Ape kes gan aku ni??

2005-02-10T16:50:00.000-08:00

Oh no! Smenjak sakit ni, I dunno y, tp agknye sbb dah lame sgt ddk umah, then tk blaja, abe asik kat dpn comp je, lately dah jd blurr sey... Otak mcm lmbt gitu nak process... Ish!! Tp, lbh teruk, I gettin very lazy - to study, to do my h/w, to memorize... Ape kes?? This is not good... No gd, no gd Khai!!

At 11 a.m today, I watched Gerak Khas (for ?? times) and at the same time, tried to read tauhid usul as I've not yet completed the talkhis... But, I managed to read only a few pages till I was bored n decided to focus on gerak khas. Then, there was Juara Lagu-19. Once again, h/w tergendale. Oooh... I saw the artist which I once had been a die hard fan of... Windu la plak, da lame tk nmpk... hehe... Then, here I am,updatin my blog. My h/w?? Still not in the mood! Oh no! This is bad! Gp tk wat lg... Talkhis dah lame ust mntk... Sastera?? Lum stat pon!! SPI? Nnti eh.. Yikes!!

Oh yes, b4 I end this... tibe2, dr semlm, nak sgt mkn Kinder beuno... Yum!! Ape kes gan aku?? hehe...

The new look!

2005-02-07T21:57:00.001-08:00

Hey ya!!
hee... How's the new look of my blog??
Well, I spent bout 1 hr plus (i guess)for this new look..
Tak pergi skola abe wat blog? How's that? Kurang asam kan...
Well... Nak wat camne kan. Dah sakit. Abe tu klw blh tdo tkpe jgk, tp everytime nak tdo, everytime jgklah my batok reach the worse. So, tak tau nak wat ape, baru kan blog...

Hmmm... Jap lg nak mkn... (sakit ni pun tk baik2... haiz... same je... bile mlm, mcm lbh truk plak...Everytime baring, rase breathless) Igt nak wat h/w, tp mcm tkde mood. Ptg nnti nak jumpe kwn, pass coupon. B4 that, nak pi cari barang jap. Dalah.. Tu je... Insya Allah...Be coming back to school this friday!

My first absent of the yr

2005-02-06T21:53:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow, 6th of feb 05, will be my first time I'll be absent from school.. Have to... Gotta go to the clinic and have sum more rest. Coughing badly this one whole week have cause sum pain in my pinggang... Ooohh... Siksenye rase... hehe...

Well, yesterday n today, tk wat satu h/w pon. Sengaja. Nak rest.. rest otak, rest badan.. Stakat hafal nusus - the first namuzaj n revise quraan ckit. Aduhai... Bile h/w nak selesai... Bile nak baik dr batok2 ni... Nk tdo la plg sikse... Haiz...

My throat hurts! and so is my lungs!

2005-02-04T14:45:00.000-08:00

Hmmph... Like there's a dog in me... hehe...
Asik batok je, n its very loud... Sorri eh korg, sbb bising! But, I can't help it... Frum monday, I was coughing... N it's not gettin any better, but more worse I can say. Td lagi... Foooyo... Dgn beg yg berat... kene naik 4 tingkat. Trus sesak sey nafas -serious. My breathing rate was very fast n dade rase berombak. Dah nak nangis coz rase nak termuntah - I feel s though the phlegm has accumulate in my bronchi. i think, I'm down not only with a normal cough, but asthma!

Ooh... coughing so much really hurts. I can't do my h/w. Hmmm... Pls pray for my recovery! Thanks!!

Coping with tonnes of assigments & projects!

2005-01-31T18:40:00.000-08:00

Homeworks! Projects! Naadil Lugha! Yikes...!!!

Alhamdulillah, finally, I just finished my GP essay on "Should divorce be made easier to obtain or are there social and moral reasons to discourage it?". Fooh... it was tough to organize the points into paragraph... I'm tired, so I anyhow conclude it.. hehe.. Tawakkaltu 'alallah!

Oh no... i'm still gasping for some fresh air... there are still lots that i've not yet done n completed. My h/w : Usul fiqh, Sastera (td spatutnye deadline... oh man! wat have i done!!) GP compre, talkhis(summary) for tauhid usul, mantiq... My projects : Fiqh, Ulum quraan, ulum hadis. Foooyoooo....!!! Then... There's the club - Nadi... Aduhai! Lum wat lg agenda... Nak discuss gan afad, die plak bz wif pantun. Then, the camp... Hmm... Tu pun memeningkan. K-k... relek2... hehe

Wow... It's very tiring. I've been taking vitamin C everyday. Waitin for my father utk balek from Mecca and I want to ask for Halal Food Booster... Haf to!! Tk blh jadi camni. I get tired easily these days and am trying very hard to keep healthy (but da batok2 pun skrg) and to be active. Wow...!! Tk sangke camni byk keje... Lots of catch-up to do!

Tr!p 2 St.J0hn !sLanD

2005-01-23T23:08:00.000-08:00

~A memorable trip... ~
When I woke up in the morning, I called farah and told her that I wanted to cancelled my trip... but... She told me that i had to go coz they need the camera, and so I was late (as it was a las min plan 4 me... sorry eh! hee..)

(our mission : to survey the place for our camp)

Well, I rushed my way there and when I finally arrived, we took the bus to Sentosa.
Again, I rushed my way (with the others) to catch the ferry and we board the ferry at approximately 10 a.m... I catched my breath and realised that there were 9 ppl altogether (including me).

On the ferry...
Nothin much happen. The journey was time-consumin and we were kinda bored.
We took photos. One of us was working on "karangan"(mencari ilham). Ade yg bace surat kaba. Ade yg dgr lagu2 dari album baru taufik. Then, we played 007.

Finally, we reached St.john island...
tengok map jap then makan... Dorg seme blum mkn.
Then, kitorg jalan cari toilet. Hehe... Sambil2, survey skali toilet. Kekek ah... Toilet bersih, tp... hehe... tkpela, tk perlu cite.
Then, kitorg jln lagi sampai tmpt campsite die. Kat gate die tulis sumting like "restricted to non-campers". Kitorg msk je (igt nak cari office die). Naik la slope (tinggi sey... penat tau.. farah n mangkuk klw naik slope tu 3 hari blh turun sey weight..hehe). Abe dah naik, skali tkde entrance. turun balik ah. Then pi tgk the rooms. Chairman amek gamba byk2... Kitorg tgk toilet lg... ah ye la toilet utk mandi die... aduhai...!!! Pastu, jln lagi... pnt sey cari office tk jumpe2... Dr satu "blok",ke satu "blok"... Skali trjumpe tmpt main dam!! Ape lg... kitorg pun main ah! hehe.. Gerek abesnye... biarpun di bwh terikan mentari. Abe dr jauh trnmpk satu org... Dorg pekik .."SIRR!!!". Kitorg pun tny org tu soalan2 then sambung lg main dam. hehe... memory. Then survey2 lg...

Dah pnt survey, duduk bwh pondok. Ade yg pi main air. Ddk2 kat tepi laut...

Pastu pi cari masjid... Solat kat mesjid tu... Seme gah haus... tk saba nak sampai "singapore" (according to mangkuk) utk bli air.. then, amek gamba... pastu naik ferri...

On the way balik kat ferry...
Seme tdo... Excpt for 2-3 org je...

Dah sampai... bli air then mkn kat harbourfront nye hawker ctr... Mkn pun kekek... Ade org tu buat cite non-stop... hehe...

Pastu, pi MC D and discuss... Ah... ni lg gerek... Ade org tu, die gah gabra, abe die trcampak begduit smpai kat meje org across kitors... hehe... baik ah!!! malu gile sey... hehe... then discuss and try to counter the problems yg blh timbul...Dlm discuss, ade je mepek2 kitorg... kul 9:15 kitorg balik...

Rumusannya, it was a great trip... Kecoh ah kitorg... I ,myself,was extra becok! sorry ah! hehe... k la... tu je...

OUT!

Down --> Hapi --> Surprised

2005-01-18T23:20:00.000-08:00

Actually,i woke up with my mood down. I didn't get enough sleep.

I entered the class with a gloomy face and didn't talked much - so did sri.

However, later, suddenly, Sri and I were back to normal. But more amazingly, I enjoyed myself after school whereby I went to the "pantun audition". Intended to just sit and look wat's goin on there but can't help it so I tried to write poems too.. hehe.. but it was just for fun. No intention of involving myself in the game.
We also played "black magic" with Cikgu and it was great. hehe.
Then, I played the game "police and murder"... that made my day! hehe...

It was great... I was laughing... Smiling... Sri too was laughing... (though she was still coughing). All of us were laughing... hehe... GREAT!

Just now, i chat wif a fren of mine. We discovered lots of similarities between us... which was very surprising and a bit scary... hehe... however, thankfully, our IC no. are diff. however, it is great talking with you... There are lots more about us that still are not yet revealed to each other. mayb there are more similarities ... hehe... well, even we share the song "aku berhenti berharap"... wow..!

To partner.. not to think too much bout it. Remember, not to keep it to urself! I'm always here.

To "silent,poisoned and titanium" heart, I really hope that we will be happy and let the past b our history and experience...

2005-01-16T18:02:00.000-08:00

I gathered the strength
I looked for support
Together
I gave up my hope
set it free
and pray for the best

Day after day,
I'm fighting with myself
I console the sadness
It was getting better
and I thought
I'm finally free
able to fly light again

But my journey just ain't
gonna be smooth
the I way I dream it to be

One by one
stepped further away
from this lonesome
to commit
to their loved ones

Till...
I find myself
standing in an empty street
all alone
hoping for a light
to torch my path,
my happy,bright and secured path

Here I am...
sensing something missing
longing for the happiness
which never fails
to come into my dreams

Giving a try

2005-01-15T00:49:00.000-08:00

Actually, I can't sleep at the moment. So,turned on the pc,d/l stuffs, listen to musics... Then, thought of creating my own blog... Just giving it a try.

Before this,was kinda afraid and lazy to create a blog of my own - due to certain reasons such as, too influenced by this thing, mis-use, get carried awy, my laziness to make it look good... etc.

Oh well...

Today was a bit hard for me. The mornin was ok - my dad sent me to school and I'm not gonna see him 4 another month... hmmm... gonna miss him. (I pray for his safe journey and good health.), later, Afad and me promote our club(Naadil Lughaa). It was quite a nervous-wreck moment as it has been quite some time since I spoke infront of so many ppl. Then, I was really happy when we played games at the library that I was accidentally a bit loud(sorry yea for those who felt disturbed...sorry!). Felt giulty. But the fun really made my day. HOWEVER, when I woke up at arnd 7, I felt something wrong. I'm not sure why. My mood was down. I turned on my pc and later my close fren msg me. We then talked on the phone but later ... Haiz... Sorry my fren! We had a small misunderstandin (4 the first time). It was meant to b a joke at first but... hmm,sorri yea.

I'm gonna stop here 4 now. Gonna have some sleep in a while or else I'm gonna look like a panda. hehe.

Khairun - OUT!

[My path]___ *Filled with so many dreams` so many hopes* ___